My life story, and why I write?

So Maggie is our host for the tranquil Thursday prompt.

Her question for this week is:

What is written and unwritten in your life’s story, your book?

Well, I’ve never attempted to write a book.

I have wanted to publish a book of my poetry, and I may at some point still do that.

But my life?

Well, I was born at 27 weeks gestation. I guess I’ve been fighting since the start!

Regular readers to my blog will know that as a child I was severely abused, at the hands of care staff and nuns in the boarding school for the blind that I attended. These people were supposed to take care of me and protect me, instead they violated and abused me.

I managed to escape that awful abuse at age 16, and then I went to a mainstream school close to my home. Unfortunately, I was the only blind child in a school of over 400 pupils, and I was bullied very badly.

This affected me deeply, so much so that after six months of the never-ending torture, I tried to kill myself, by overdosing on Prozac.

This was the start of my long battle with mental illness, I was first diagnosed with clinical depression, followed on by PTSD, and dissociative identity disorder, and anxiety.

I’ve had a long struggle, many hospitalizations, and many suicide attempts.

Nowadays I’m more stable, thanks to my amazing team, my therapist Eileen, my psychiatrist Dr. Barry, and my community psychiatric nurse Sarah.

And thanks also to me, because I put in a lot of work and hard work at that so that I might heal.

I always say my past does not define me. I firmly believe that.

I may write my autobiography someday, who knows.

In the meantime, I write this blog, and I don’t hold back in it.

I am real, and I am honest, I want to end the stigma of having a mental illness, and I hope my blog does that successfully.

Throwback Thursday Vs Tranquil Thursday #1 (wordpress.com)

Author: Carol anne

I am 40 years young. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

24 thoughts on “My life story, and why I write?”

  8. Pingback: My life story, and why I write? — Therapy Bits – GettingrealwithPTSD

  9. Wow… Your early life story is quite something. I’m sorry that you had to live through that. I’m glad that you are still here, that you have come so far on the healing journey, and are able to express yourself through writing. ❤

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