Question of the day

So today, my question to you is this…

What has benefited you most in your healing journey?

For me, it is a few things. Writing is one. Having this blog, somewhere to share, has helped me so so much. I love my blog. I love all of you my blog buddies. Your all amazing and you’ve been so kind to me. It doesn’t go unnoticed.

Having a therapist has also helped us greatly. Its hard work but so worth it. Processing memories, doing EMDR is hard. But I wouldn’t change it for the world. I have gotten so much out of therapy.

Music, reading, hot tea, essential oils, my dog, all also help me.

So what helps you and has benefited you in your healing?

A great morning!

so I had a fab workout! I did well! I went on the treadmill for 25 mins, and the bike for 10 mins! I did 1 KM on the treadmill and 2 KM on the bike! I feel great! It has really lifted my mood to exercise!
I’m all set now for the rest of the day! When I came out of the gym I went and bought a sandwich for my lunch, I chose chicken and stuffing, on brown bread! So a healthy option for lunch! I already ate it once I got home! I was starving as all I’d eaten was some fruit this morning.
A funny thing happened. When I got my taxi to go home, I told the driver I was going to my own house. The driver knew me, he usually picks me up. He thought I’d said I wanted to go to my parents house though! So he brought me there instead of bringing me home! Luckily I noticed when we got out of the car. He was kind and said it was his mistake and brought me home and didn’t charge me anything extra for the extra journey!
I’m just relaxing now for a few hours before I am going out again to go volunteering. My supervisor called me, she’s picking me up at 2 PM. I am tanked up on coffee now so my energy levels are good! πŸ™‚

Good Tuesday morning

Happy Tuesday everyone. How are you all?

I’m off to the gym in a few minutes, looking forward to my workout.

I actually slept good, didn’t think I would but I did when I finally fell asleep around 3 AM.

I slept until around seven, so got four hours of uninterrupted sleep which I badly needed.

Just waiting for my PA to come no, she’s going to the gym with me. We have two hours but I’ll probably only stay in the gym for an hour.

Weighed myself this morning and seem to be down a few pounds, I’m down around 4 lb I think in total, so very pleased, as I won’t be weighing in this week I decided to weigh myself at home on my own skills.

I think on my eating of healthy food and my good habits are paying off finally, I am delighted.

Daily gratitude oct. 15th

today I am grateful for a lot. In no particular order the things I feel grateful for today are:

My therapist. She continually amazes me with her dedication and support to us.

My dog. He is such a sweet boy. So warm and gives great cuddles and just loves me unconditionally.

The cooler weather. Its nice to still see sun though too. I like that its cooler now.

My heating. I am warm and cosy. I am glad I have heat in the house.

Fresh fruit. I ate some nice honey dew melon just now. It was amazing.

My sister. She drops me places when she is able to to save me money on taxi’s.

My niece and nephew. They continually make my heart swell with joy. Their laughter is infectious.

Coffee. Where would I be without it?

Books, I love them.

My uncle, who gave me some new clothes today, thanks to him for them.

There are just so many things to be grateful for on this Monday. Oh and one more thing, despite being a little off tonight, I’m grateful to be alive, and to be out of the abuse I endured for so many years.

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Doing some EMDR

therapy was good. intense. we did EMDR. That was good but man it was intense.
I got so much from it though. We worked on memory processing. Normally I’d rail against that but today I didn’t. Today I actually felt up to working through some memories. I felt like we could do that without actually drowning in grief and pain and trauma…
We also worked with our body. Noticing the feelings coming up. Noticing how our body felt when they came up. Just noticing…it was great. Normally I’m shit at noticing my body. I am so unaware of things and of how it feels. Not today though. Today I did good.
We worked on grounding techniques too. On coming into the here and now, coming into the present moment. Eileen worked with liz and Emily on this. And me too of course. But while she worked with us, she also invited other insiders to come into the conference room and watch what was happening, and feel it through us. We can do that. So that’s what we did. It was good.
All in all it was a great session. I’m tired now. I think a restful evening is in order. An evening where I can just chillax. Chill out. Don’t have to be anywhere or do anything either. And I don’t. My sister will drop me home in a little while, and I think I am going to just veg out this evening.
I need time to process. Time to reflect on todays session. We talked about our next couple of sessions today also. We’ll have one next Monday, and then the week of Halloween Monday is a bank holidays. We’re going to make up for it though and have our session on Thursday that week. Then the following week its back to Monday, and then Eileen is out on a training course on the 12th for a week.
She knew we’d be having a really hard time the week of Halloween, so she didn’t want us missing a session that week. I love that she’s so aware, so careful about us not having to miss any of our sessions. It really means so much to me that she is so aware of our needs.

Slept well, surprise surprise!

so I got a great nights sleep! couldn’t believe it!
went to bed at around 11 PM last night. fell asleep right away!
I honestly didn’t think I’d sleep at all! I was wired before I went to bed! And I hadn’t even had any caffeine!
But thankfully it all worked out, and because I slept so well I was able to get up at 7:30 this morning, I jumped out of bed!
Therapy in an hour. Am wondering how todays session will go. I’m sure it will be ok. I’m a little apprehensive though about it.
This morning I am thankful for a good nights sleep. I am thankful for a nice big bowl of porridge to warm me up. And I am thankful that I am going to see Eileen soon.

At my friends

Having a really nice afternoon here at my friends house. We are just hanging out and talking. It’s nice. I am having fun. Needed the break, mood has been pretty low today. Hoping it will pick up soon.

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I didn’t bring nitro with me. Left him at home with my mum and dad. He is being spoiled there.

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Planning on watching X factor tonight. Don’t know what else I will do probably will read for a while. Have to start a new book not sure yet what book I’m going to start.

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Well catch you all later πŸ˜ƒ