Thankful thursday :D

Today I am thankful for

My family
my friends
my health
my dog
the staff here at the ILS course
my psychiatrist
my therapist
nice weather
good food
the fact that I am happy today
My life!


afternoon of volunteering

ive been having a great afternoon volunteering. i’m super busy which i love.
i’ve been helping out with friendly call. i love that job. i love talking to people. i find it super easy and enjoy getting to chat with the clients.
i have also been writing up a piece that is going to go in the newsletter for the partnership. i will post it below.
here is what i wrote…
My name is Shirley Healy. I am 38 years old and I have been blind since birth. I have a guide dog whose name is Nitro, he’s 7 years old. He has really made a huge difference in my life. I’ve been volunteering with the partnership since august of 2017. I first heard about the partnership when I heard about the friendly call service. Initially when I decided to volunteer I wanted to volunteer on the friendly call service. I spoke to Brenda barry and we determined at the time that the service wasnt suitable, so she asked me if I’d like to volunteer in the office instead. Then I approached Mary Sheehey and we had a chat and I started doing work in the office, I was on reception, taking phone calls and doing other jobs around the office. In time I actually did start working on the friendly call service, so now I also help out with that. I am also doing an independent living skills course during the week in abode, which is a centre for people with physical and sensory disabilities. I also volunteer one day a week in a preschool for kids with special needs. I love this work and find it very rewarding. In my spare time I like to sing, and I’ve been taking singing lessons since I was young. I love to read, and I use my I phone to read audiobooks. I am into technology in a big way and love being on the computer and internet. I also write a blog, I blog about disability and related issues. I have gone to college, and studied childcare, social work and addiction studies. I enjoy learning and found college to be a great experience. I also enjoy writing articles for mental health websites. I have recently also volunteered with shine, an organisation that works with people who have mental illness and their families. I have also worked as a youth leader for farranree youth club, but I no longer do this nowadays.

Do ya’ll think its good?
Im finished today at 5 and then I will go back to abode and have dinner and chill for the evening. i want to read some and also catch up on some blog posts.

Stronger than bpd

There was a great question posed in the book Stronger Than BPD. The book read, “Think about something that occurred in your life that at the time felt immensely difficult and perhaps even insurmountable. Recall how your inner strength and resiliency allowed you to ride out the storms. Celebrate that the situation, no matter how difficult or upsetting had some Silver Lining that created meaning.”

I have had many difficulties in life. I am going to celebrate the fact I got through them. I came out the other side. That something worth celebrating.

Pretty good monday

so despite the intense therapy session and liz feeling emotional and having flashbacks we had a good day over all.
class was good. i’m almost finished now with my healthy and nutrition module. i have a skills demo coming up in 2 weeks. i have to make a healthy breakfast, lunch and dinner for it. Im making a fresh fruit salad with linseed mix on it and natural yogurt for breakfast. for lunch im making a salad and having baby potatos with it and brown soda bread. and for dinner I am making a bean and vegetable casserole. I cant sait to do it. I’m excited to do it because I enjoy cooking.
I was the only one in class today. There was meant to be four of us. but one girl wasnt in, and the other two are part timers so they dont come in on mondays. so i had the full attention of my two tutors. one to one time, which was very nice.
After class I chilled out. Read my book. Ate dinner a healthy dinner of chicken vegetables and potatos. NO dessert. I left the kitchen before the dessert was given out.
Spent most of the evening in my room. We napped for a while because Liz was feeling so bad. She said sleep might help her so i let her sleep. now we’re wide awake though. cant sleep at all. probably will stay up for a while yet. might start a new book. or watch something on netflix.

Cant sleep…

so its 11:30. And I cant sleep. sigh. I knew this was going to happen.
I didnt even nap today. I was up at 8 this morning actually.
Why is it I can only get one or two nights of good sleep. I so wish I didnt struggle so much with sleep. It makes life very difficult.
I think I’ll go read for a while. I have 2 hours left of my audio book a long way from home, by cathy glass. Its a good read if your interested I highly recommend her books.
carol anne

still awake

still awake. its now almost 11 AM. didnt sleep a wink last night.
not even tired, prob due to all the coffee i drank.
am just listening to a chat show on the radio. its interesting.
the depression has lifted for now. thank fuck. i hate being so down. it drives me stak raving mad.
wonder when i’ll crash. going to lay down in a little while and read. will probably fall asleep with my book on and then have to rewind it.

allie missing eileen

I miss Eileen tonight.

we shoulda been having our session today. but we didn’t cuz it was a bank holiday.

we’ll see her on Thursday. but it seems so far away.

I did email her though. I told her how much I loved her. and am missing her.

I took out her rose scent and sniffed it over and over. I don’t care if people think I’m weird. Eileen gave me the empty bottle and I always smell it and the scent still hasn’t gone out of it.

I also listened to her reading in my heart to me. I have that recorded. she said we can read another book soon. I cant wait. I will record her reading to us again. we left the book today I feel silly, and other moods that make my day in her office. so we’ll probably read that one.

Thursday better come quick. I need to go to therapy.
I need a hug from Eileen.

allie, age 9