Author: Carol Anne

I am a woman in my mid 30's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland.

She’s home!

Eileen just emailed me. She’s home. She’s home and she’s ok and safe!
What a huge relief that is!
She forgot her phone though! She left it behind her left it in england, so she said she was waiting for it to arrive in the post!
I was like OMG! If I forgot my phone I’d die!
My phone is literally tied to me hahaha! I cant leave it out of my hand!
She’s home though! And she said she’s so proud of us for being able to manage our huge feelings. And we will see her on Monday, yay!
Strange how I emailed instead of texting, normally I’d have texted her. And then she wouldnt have got it as her phone is in england still! Strange how I thought to email instead! A coincidence or someone watching over me making sure I got in touch with her somehow!
Who knows, but I sure am glad I decided to email her!
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Interview

I have an interview for college next Wednesday. I’m nervous. I didn’t realize we’d have to be interviewed. The college said if more than 25 people applied we’d have to have an interview. I hope I’ll do well. I wonder what questions I’ll be asked

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If you can please pray. I’m so scared

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I hate having to do this.

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Support and hugs appreciated

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Volunteering and other stuff

volunteering went well. Im still in the office. Its been a super busy afternoon. We’re really short staffed so I had extra work to do. I didnt mind though. I like being busy.
I didnt go to the gym this morning. I was going but then at the last minute I said I wouldnt go. I felt kinda bla about it. Not really in the mood for exercising. So I left it go and will wait for another time, probably next week now.
I let the kids have a treat today. A bag of crisps and a turkey and cheese roll with chili sauce, they were ecstatic, they devoured the food and I also let them have a diet vanilla coke. So I scored brownie points with them hahaha.
Eileen hasnt emailed us yet. I emailed her this morning to see if she got home safely. She hasnt responded. All I can think is she’s not home yet. Or she’s busy and hasnt got time to respond to us yet. But she will, I know she will. I have faith that she will as she will know we worry and fret that she is not ok.
I am going to moms soon for the weekend. Mom and I are going on a mother daughter christmas shopping adventure tomorrow. We’ll also have lunch out. I am excited to go. I love that we get to spend some one to one time together with each other. It makes me super happy.
Im going to have a nice omelette for dinner today. With ham, cheese, peppers and onion in it. I cant wait. I love omelettes.

Damn it anyway!

My PA has been here all morning. Normally she doesnt have a car with her but today she had her dads car. Outside my house there’s a parking space, its mine, anyone whose visiting me can park there. I left my PA go a little early, and she just facebooked me to say that she’d recieved a parking fine of 150 euro! For parking in the space outside my house, that is my space, I might add. Damn it! I told her not to pay it. I told her to ring them up and see what they will say. She did and she just needs to get a picture of my disabled parking permit. But my god! Who would have reported her for parking there? Someone in my estate must have! Someone had to have done it! I live in a housing estate so its not like the people who clamp cars would even be in there! I am so angry! So so angry! Thank god its easily sorted though! Otherwise her dad would have had to pay 150 euro! No way I said there’s no way she’s paying it!
God what a nightmare! some people, they are malicious!

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Something to celebrate

I slept. I got through the night. Even though I was missing Eileen so much, I made it.
Doing a happy dance! 😀
This morning I am celebrating my achievements. I will celebrate with a cup of coffee and a big smile plastered across my face. Eileen will be so proud of me. I used my coping skills. I didn’t wallow. I didn’t give in. Instead I practiced self care. I was ok.
Counting my blessings, life is good!
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