word of the day challenge: cruel

you stole my innocence
You stole my childhood
you were so vile, so cruel
you didn’t care how it made me feel
you didn’t care what you did to me
you just did what you wanted
you were a psychopath
someone who doesn’t feel any remorse
and I
I was just a little girl
I didn’t have a choice
I had to do your bidding
I didn’t get a say
How cruel is that

Cruel – Word of the Day Challenge

The bombylious bumble bee

Just a few minutes ago
In my room
Loud, and very scary
the bombylious noise
of a bumble bee
it freaks me out
I scream
so my dad
Has to come in
and kill it
then and only then
I calm down again
http://mynamaste365online.blog/2019/08/18/ndrw-76/

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I wish

I wish
for just one day
where I dont feel so depressed
where I can just breathe
where I feel ok
I wish
for one day
which is peaceful
I hope
and wish
And pray
today will be that day
for me
I’m doing everything I can
To make it so
I’m excited today
By the things I have planned
So I just wish
And hope
That today
Is the day
I feel happy, and just feel good

https://pipersadventures.blog/2019/08/15/wish-hot-summer-night/

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#writephoto, Thursday photo prompt, journey

This week I am again participating in sue vincents writephoto prompt, if you’d like to take part then go visit her at her blog, which I will link below.
https://scvincent.com/2019/08/15/thursday-photo-prompt-journey-writephoto/

He walks alone
Head down
Deep in thought
A deep thinker
Everyone knows that about him
He’s on a journey
A journey of self discovery
A misty sky
As the hills roll by
He adores nature
Long may this peace last, he thinks

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Fowc with fandango:Inconspicuous

Welcome to fowc, with fandango! To participate in todays prompt, check out fandangos post here!
http://fivedotoh.com/2019/08/12/fowc-with-fandango-inconspicuous/

Todays word is inconspicuous!

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she sat
very inconspicuous
people watching
she watched everyone
but she herself
was inconspicuous
nobody took notice of her
she wondered
not for the first time that day
if they were just too wrapped up
in their own lives
and day
or if she really
was not attracting attention
was she invisible?
she certainly felt as if she was
her mind began to drift
she began to dissociate
float away
she looked at the clouds above
wouldnt it be nice she thought
to just float away
float away on a cloud
and with that
she closed her eyes
and fell into a hazy dream like state
she awoke some time later
not knowing the time, or day
where was she?
then she remembered
she was sat on this park bench
A lot of hours had passed
Was she dissociating or sleeping all this time?
she didnt know
But it had been fun

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Could hav been

i could have been beautiful
but you spattered me with blood
i might have been graceful
but you knocked me into the mud

i could have been courageous
but you crumpled me into a ball
i might have been brave
but you made me feel so small

i could have been intelegent
but you taught me not to try
i might have been brilliant
but you told me the truth is a lie

i could have been trusting
but your promises lay broken
i might have been confiding
but you taught me to leave everything unspoken

i could have been independent
but you left so many needs unfilled
i might of been self-reliant
but you made it so i couldn’t rebuild

i could have been whole
but you tore me all apart
i might have been so much more
but you destroyed my growing heart

c2006

This is a poem about my experiences of being a child abuse survivor, this was written to my abusers.