I slept well last night, went to bed around nine. Slept really good thankfully.
Leaving to go volunteering in about 10 minutes, my friendly call shift the usual that I do on Friday afternoons.
I’m looking forward to doing my shift today. Looking forward to talking to all the lovely people that Are on my list to call.
I’m still at my parents house, will be staying here for the weekend. No plans for this coming weekend. Will probably go to my friend Norma’s house tomorrow, well I might, it depends on if she’s busy or not.
Anyway better go now, I’m being picked up in about five minutes. Catch you all later.
What is one thing you wish people knew about mental illness?
I wish people knew that we are normal people, just struggling to get by, we just happened to have a mental illness but we are Normal we are not psychopaths and we are not evil.
FUCKING CANT STAND THAT EILEEN IS GONE. MISSING HER SO BAD BUT DONT WANNA SAY THAT! UG THIS SUCKS! FEEL SO ON EDGE. JUST WISH SHE WASNT OUT OF THE DAMN COUNTRY. JUST WISH I HAD HAD MY SESSION TODAY. WROTE HER AN ANGRY EMAIL. CUZ WELL SHE CAN HANDLE IT. AND I KNOW SHE KNOWS IM MAD AT HER. BUT ONLY CUZ I FEEL ABANDONED! AND INSECURE! DAMN THIS FUCKING BLOODY SUCKS!
IM FEELING SO INSECURE TONIGHT. MY BRAIN IS ON OVERLOAD. I MISS EILEEN. I WISH SHE WASNT ON VACATION.
I EMAILED HER. I TOLD HER HOW I FEEL.
IM NOT SURE IF SHE’S ALREADY GONE ON HOLIDAY. SHE DIDNT TELL ME THE DAY SHE’D BE GOING. SHE’S PROBABLY GONE ALREADY BUT SHE DID SAY SHE’D BE CHECKING HER EMAIL EVERY DAY.
I KNOW SHE WONT RESPOND BUT AT LEAST SHE’LL KNOW HOW I FELT.
I HATE MY BRAIN SOMETIMES. RATIONALLY IT SAYS ONE THING, BUT EMOTIONALLY ITS TOTALLY SOMEWHERE ELSE.
THIS JUST SUCKS.
So I am home, and dinner has been eaten. i treated myself to a chicken burger. I made cocktail sauce and had that on top with some cheese. It was delicious.
going to call my friend norma soon for a chat. then will probably watch a little tv and maybe read for a while. im not going to do too much tonight. just relax, and enjoy the start of my weekend.
mom and my sis left for the camp site earlier. they’ll be there soon I guess. I will call them soon to see if they got there safe. I just texted my mom just now to check with her if she’s ok.
Thought I’d participate again today in the 6 word story prompt that Jo over at a creative ptsd gal has started.
Prompt word is lose.
Lose pain and sadness, have hope.
Tomorrow my mom and sister are going camping, without us. I decided I wouldn’t go. Its not my thing, really.
I will stay at my parents though for the weekend with my dad. I plan on catching up with friends this weekend. I plan on visiting Norma on Saturday, and my friend Rose on Sunday. Monday will be a rest day, unless I decide to go to the movies with some of the members of the basement club, I am still thinking about it.
I will miss my mom this weekend. My dad is not the easiest to get along with. I always prefer to have my mom here. Also its a big thing for me to say I will miss her. A year or to ago I’d have never said that. So yeah progress!
Im planning on having a nice weekend though. I will also put some self care activities in to help me cope. Some nice hot showers, time to read, watch some tv, a treat for the kids, blogging, etc.