#whatif prompt 6-21-2018

Todays #whatif prompt over at what if we all care is…deep into the woods.

Since today is the summer solstace and a very hard day for us due to us being ritual abuse survivors, I thought we could write a poem encorporating the prompt.

deep into the woods we go
what will happen we just dont know
anything is likely
horror, terror
things you’d never endure
they’d shock you
bring you to your knees
abuse, torture, awful awful memories
child porn, rape and sexual abuse
all part of rituals
that we had to take part in
even though we were just kids
no choice
never given a choice
it was just do it now
or you’ll end up dead
scared shitless
we’d participate
and on this date
every year
we are always so terrified
and very scared

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another day is here

well its thursday. wow already? anyway. i got a great nights sleep. so i am feeling good today.
after last nights disappointment of being up when I got weighed in, i have picked myself up. this morning i exercised. i did 30 mins of a workout. i have a workout on my phone designed for the blind. i did that.
Im also drinking a lot of water. I’ve drank 3 500 ml bottles since last night. I feel good and I think it is helping, although I need to use the bathroom a lot lol.
My mom has gone to pick up my meds this morning. Im still at my parents house. I will be here for a fewe days. My PA asked me last night if she could take tomorrow night off, since she is going away for a few days. I told her she could.
I dont have too many plans for today. Moms going to make a spag bol for us. She’s making it the healthy way with passata and tinned tomatos and wholemeal spaghetti and 5 percent fat minced beef.
It will be yummy!
Other than that I’m just relaxing here at my parents. Its a beautiful sunny day. Last night when I came home from slimming world I was freezing! I even ended up wearing a fleece pajamas! But today its warm and I had to take it off and put on a light strappy top and some leggings.
What are your plans for today?

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Unlucky this week

so it didnt happen for me this week.
I didnt lose any weight. In fact I gained half a pound.
I was so disappointed.
But I think I know what I am doing wrong. I am not eating enough speed foods, to help me in my weight loss.
Thats mostly fruit and veg. So for next week I’ll eat plenty more of them.
So, onwards and upwards for next week. And I hope by eating more speed foods I’ll see results on the scale.

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Weigh in time 馃榾

Another Wednesday, another week. Time to go and get weighed in. Hopefully I’ve lost some weight this week. I’m being hopeful.

I’ve had a pretty good week so I should be okay.

Will report back when I get home in about two hours.


Wish me luck guys

#whatif prompt 6-20-2018

Todays #whatif prompt is shredded. My take on it:

emotions are shredded
feeling jaded
sitting here
living in fear
want to scream
want to shout
i cant, i’m just mute
shredded emotions
are hard to live with
am i coming or going
dont know
but do care
wish i didnt
have to always fear
my own mind
my body too
i dont have a clue


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healthy recipe. Leannes romaine chicken rap with strawberries

Leannes Romaine Chicken Wrap with Strawberries



路 CUISINEClassic


路 1 tablespoon dried cranberries

路 1 tablespoon chopped celery

路 1 tablespoon low fat mayonnaise

路 1 tablespoon low fat plain yogurt

路 2 ounces cooked boneless skinless chicken breast meat, leftovers are good here

路 1 Romaine lettuce leaf

路 1 cup sliced strawberries


Combine 1 tablespoon each dried cranberries, chopped celery, low fat mayonnaise, low fat plain yogurt and 2 ounces cooked boneless skinless chicken breast meat. Pile into a Romaine lettuce leaf and enjoy with 1 cup sliced strawberries.

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moms birthday and weight loss

i feel a little bit on the tired side this morning, despite getting a lot of sleep yesterday, i read my book for 2 hours last night, and finished it, it was around 1:30 when I went to bed. I couldnt sleep for a while, but eventually fell asleep around 3 AM.
woke up at 7, mom was up so i got up too. wished mom a happy birthday, the weathers pretty crap right now, its raining and very damp.
we’re not going out until around 3 today. i plan on having soup and brown bread for my lunch. i have my weigh in tonight, am starting to wonder now how that will go. yesterday when i went to get my trevicta shot, they weighed me, the nurse said she was weighing all of her trevicta patients.
I was 94 kg. At slimming world they weigh in stones not kg’s or pounds. So we’ll see. Hoping I’ve lost some weight this week. I’ve been pretty good so heres hoping I’ve done enough.

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