Living life with dissociative identity disorder and complex ptsd
so I texted eileen this morning, to ask her if she got home safely. She texted back right away to say that she did, and that she’d see us tomorrow, what a relief that she’s safely home!
Am so looking forward to seeing her tomorrow!
Alls well again now that therapy is resuming!
carol anne
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so yesterday when I was going to get my new phone, i decided that I’d bring a coat with me. I decided to try on my jeans jacket, I hadnt worn it in months, before, when I wore it I couldnt tie it because I was too fat and it wouldnt tie on me.
Yesterday though, I was able to comfortably tie it, it fit perfectly and I even had a little breathing room in it. I was so excited! I couldnt believe it! Thats how I can really tell I’ve lost weight now! Clothes that used to not fit, now fit! Yay!
After shopping for my phone, I went to try on some new clothes. I wanted to get something to wear for wednesday nights awards ceremony. I went first to evan’s store, its a plus size clothing store but they do regular sizes too. I couldnt find what I wanted in there, even though I tried on a few tops. None of them fit the way I liked.
So off we went to new look, another clothing store. I tried on a few more tops while in there and a jeans too. A white jeans. The jeans fit but it was still a little tight, so I decided to wait a few more months before I’ll start wearing jeans again. Instead I’ll wear leggings on wednesday night, a white leggings, I did get a nice dress top, one that comes off the shoulder.
So I am very happy. I tried some shoes too but none of the pairs I tried fit me comfortably so I will just wear a pair that I own already. I have really broad feet so I find it hard to buy shoes at the best of times and normally I have to buy really expensive shoes to get a pair that fit me right.
It was a good shopping trip though. I’m happy with the top I bought. I will look lovely for the award ceremony on wednesday night, and thats what matters most.
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IM PISSED, SO HERE GOES, YOU’VE BEEN WARNED, THIS IS NOT A NICE POST!
IM HELLA PISSY CUZ THE NURSE SARAH THE COMMUNITY PSYCH NURSE SHE WAS MEANT TO CALL US! WHEN DR. BARRY WAS OFF THIS WEEK SHE WAS MEANT TO CHECK IN WITH US, SHE DIDNT! AND IM FUCKING MAD AS HELL ABOUT IT! ITS NOT RIGHT! DR. BARRY PUT IN A REFERRAL! SHE DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO CALL! AND WE HAD NO NUMBER FOR HER SO WE COULDNT CALL HER OURSELVES! DAMN HER ANYWAY! DAMN DAMN DAMN HER!
WHAT KINDA SHIT IS THAT ANYWAY? WHO DOES THAT? DR. BARRY SPECIFICALLY TOLD ME SHE PUT IN A REFERRAL! SH E TOLD ME SARAH WOULD CALL US! AND SHE DIDNT! SHE BLOODY WELL GOT IT SO WRONG! AND NOW THE WEEKS OVER!
THANK GOD WE SEE EILEEN ON MONDAY! THANK FUCKING GOD!
LIZ
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I wanted to participate in word of the day! todays word? grudging!
so I will say this. grudgingly, carol anne let me do this post! she’s a meanie! ahahaha ok not really, im just kidding!
really though im full of energy and have nothing to do with it!
I feel kinda manic actually. and we aren’t even bipolar! although some people say I am a little bit wild and act manic a lot of times!
do I care? naw, not really!
im looking forward to going shopping today! I want to check out all the cool clothes! see what we can buy to wear on Wednesday! i’d love a dress but I doubt carol anne will let me buy one.
she thinks we aren’t skinny enough for a dress yet. I think we are! I think we’d be able to pull off wearing one, if we got the right kind!
what do you guys think? are you in agreement with me?
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of course you are!
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anyway. Cant wait to hit those shops! it is gonna be fun!
Amy, age 15
I slept well last night, went to bed around nine. Slept really good thankfully.
Leaving to go volunteering in about 10 minutes, my friendly call shift the usual that I do on Friday afternoons.
I’m looking forward to doing my shift today. Looking forward to talking to all the lovely people that Are on my list to call.
I’m still at my parents house, will be staying here for the weekend. No plans for this coming weekend. Will probably go to my friend Norma’s house tomorrow, well I might, it depends on if she’s busy or not.
Anyway better go now, I’m being picked up in about five minutes. Catch you all later.
didnt sleep good at all last night. i even went to bed at a reasonable hour. i went to bed around 11:30. i didnt read, i decided to try to go right to sleep. no such luck though. i tossed, i turned, i lay there wide awake for ages. eventually i did fall asleep for a couple hours but I woke again at 5 AM. got up, since I couldnt get back to sleep. mom got up at six. she had a bad night, her COPD was acting up. she had to get up and take her inhalers. she’s a little better now. we sat together in the kitchen and had a cup of tea together. she has to go grocery shopping this morning. my sister will take her. i heard yesterday that my partner jess has the chicken pox. her long time friend told me. apparently jess’s adoptive mom told her. so today i need to go get her a get well card. she’s in isolation. as you know she’s in residential, in a residential psych facility. anyway she’s in isolation for the next 10 days. i bet thats no fun at all. no visitors and no one to talk to for 10 days, only the staff in the facility. i was telling my mom this morning that i need to see about getting a before and after picture for next week for the awards ceremony. they want before and after pics. i have a before one or i should have, in my phone. one that was taken when i was 2 stone heavier. i will take an after pic this week I’ll have mom take one for me. hopefully i can get a good one. other than all that not much planned for today. just having a quiet day at my parents. nothing much will be happening today. i can just relax and take it easy.
carol anne
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Not what we experience, but how we perceive what we experience, determines our fate.
Marie von Ebner-Eschenbach
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