The celebration

well we celebrated moms birthday and had a blast. there was myself, my mom, dad, sister and my sisters 2 kids. despite my dads whining and being a groan, we enjoyed ourselves. he’s all about routine, and he wanted to leave the garden centre after an hour, after we’d eaten our meal. but we wanted to stay and look around at the flowers and other items they sell. me and my sister also wanted to get dessert and get our mom a glass of wine to celebrate her birthday. we did end up staying which my dad wasnt to thrilled about. the garden centre has so many amazing flowers and plants, but a lot of them are very expensive. my sister bought some flowers, she said she wants to try her hand at gardening. i would have bought some but my fear of bees and insects keeps me from having flowers in my back yard. i did see apple trees though and I really want one. My friend rose said they draw wasps too though and my sister said they draw worms. I would also love a swing for my back yard. then I could sit out and read or listen to music while nitro played in the garden. i’d also love a water feature but they are so expensive. then you have to get a plumber to plumb it all in and stuff. it sounds like too much hard work but maybe i can dream? the food was lovely. for my meal i had a sweet chili and chicken rap with fries, and for dessert I had red velvet gateau. it was delicious. they make all of their cakes fresh every day so its extra nice. my mom won five euro on one of the lottery tickets I gave her. she didnt get anything on the other two. when we drove back to ur parents and dropped them off, mom said to me and laura that she’d had a fantastic day, then she kissed both of us which was a big surprise but a nice surprise. i think she felt special and was happy to have her family around her today. the weather here is still really hot. the temps are supposed to get higher tomorrow. we had a little thunder shower earlier but I think thats because of the heat. I’m feeling good tonight. I feel settled, calm and happy which feels so nice. Its been a wonderful day.


Moms birthday

its my moms birthday today, she’s 55. we are going out for lunch to celebrate it. we are going to a local garden centre. it should be nice. the food there is nice and today its really sunny so its the perfect day to go. My sister is going to pick me up when she finishes work at 2. I sorted my moms card, I am giving her money and lottery tickets. Hopefully she’ll be lucky on one of the scratch cards. I hope your all having a lovely tuesday and I hope wherever you are that the weather is nice.


Fathers day

Yep its fathers day. despite my dads recent behaviour and despite what my thoughts are on it, i spent it with him and the rest of my family. the weather here today was hot and sunny and so we spent the day outside in my parents back garden. it was a really nice day, and everything went off ok today which felt so good. i gave our dad a card with some money in it and some lottery tickets and he won 10 euro on the lottery tickets, I also played a request on our local radio for him. He seemed to like that I did that, he got a kick out of it.


A very good Friday

Things are a lot better for us today. A lot calmer. We had a terrific day. The weather here was beautiful today. I spent the day at my parents house out in their garden. Nitro was in his element, he really enjoyed being out in the garden running around. My sister came with the kids and we all had a fun time. Tomorrow mom and us and our sister and the kids are going to the beach and doing a BBQ on the beach. I’m looking forward to it. I’m also looking forward to a long walk on the beach, and a big 99 icecream cone on the way home. I promised the kids I’d get them an ice cream cone with a chocolate flake in it. The BBQ should be fun. We’re going to BBQ sausages. The weather for the rest of this weekend is supposed to be fabulous. Its my cousins birthday tomorrow, I got her a card and am giving her some money and a lottery ticket. Mom and me and my sister were going to go to my aunts today to drop her presents and cards off to her but then my sister was too tired so we never ended up going. My other aunt whose moms other sister called this evening and I spent some time chatting to her and mom which was cool. I’ve also been burning cd’s all day onto my computer. I am trying to rip all of my music and rip all of my movies and its going to take me forever lol. I have so many you see. My new dvd’s and cd’s i got on ebay havent arrived yet. I’m anxiously waiting for them to arrive. Maybe they’ll come on Monday. I hope you’ve all had a good day today. What are your plans for the weekend?


tired sunday

i had a boring day was really tired, didnt get to sleep until after 7 am, slept half the day away then, woke up ate dinner, and then mom came over to my house with me to help me pack up some stuff that I am mailing off to people, books and things that I am getting rid of. Mom stayed for an hour or so. The rest of today I just watched tv and listened to the radio. It was 2 of my friends birthdays, rose and Norma. I texted both of them to wish them a happy birthday. Hopefully I’ll see them some time this week and I’ll be able to give them a birthday card. My computer got infected with some sort of virus tonight. I spent hours trying to fix it. I did eventually fix it but it was driving me crazy. I almost broke it because I was getng madder and madder when I couldnt fix it. Nitro was looking at me like I had 10 heads lol. I dont think he knew why I was yelling at the computer to hurry up and be fixed. He got a little nervous so I had to give him extra cuddles. tomorrow is therapy day. i cant wait. i’m not anxious this week at all about going. i really need to see eileen. the 2 week break felt way too long. I just need to talk to her I have a lot on my mind. I hope everyone had a good sunday.


friday evening

well my plans sorta changed. i didnt end up staying at the basement club until 4 like I thought I would. Instead I decided to go to my parents tonight, and spend the weekend, despite my earlier reservations about not wanting to be around my dad. Mom said he was doing better so I decided to give him a chance. So far its proving to be the right thing that I did. He’s a little subdued, and hasnt moaned or lost patience with me all day so that is good at least. Mom was making stir fry for dinner but I didnt have any. I had eaten at the basement club. My sister came over too with the kids. Davin got his hair cut that was a huge deal. He hates getting it cut. he cried the whole time. but then once it was done he loved his new hair lol. i asked mom if she’d be available to take me to my two doctor appointments and she said she would so that is good at least i’ll have someone to take me. i still dont see why the doctor couldnt have just flushedd out my ears for me. it wouldnt have taken her that long. my ear actually feels a little bit better today, it feels like its unblocked a little. but i’ll still have them flushed out. my dad has a hospital apt on monday for a chest x-ray. then the following monday he has a bone density scan. my two apts are next wednesday for the ear flushing and monday the 26th for the blood pressure monitor. i plan on doing absolutely nothing this weekend. i’m going to be a totally lazy bum lol. i deserve a weekend where i can read, watch tv, chill out. the voice kids is coming on tv and i am dying to see it. i love singing shows like x factor and the voice. i suppose that is because i am passionate about singing. anyway the kids should be amazing i’m sure they will be. i feel glad i came to my parents tonight. i am happy i am not on my own. i realise now isolating isnt good for me. oh yeah before i forget, i got a great deal on ebay tonight! i sold an old cell phone it was a phone with talks software on it i sold it to a guy in the UK whose blind. so with the money i decided to go on ebay and see if i could get something. you’ll never guess what i snagged! a job lot of 100 cd’s and dvd’s, for 38 UK pounds! Thats a bargain if ever there was one. They are all brand new and sealed too. There are tons of movies in there for all ages so i think everyone in the system will be happy! another girl on an email list i am on sold me 16 disney dvd’s for 30 pounds, they are used but i dont care, and i dont think the kids will care either they will just be delighted to have movies! i kept it as a surprise because they love it when we get mail and well now i can tell them there is mail for them too! i also had my treat for the week today and i made an effort to include everyone in the treat so i bought us a chocolate and peanut butter filled donut! that was a huge hit let me tell ya. so yep its been a happy friday. i hope you all had a happy friday too. what one thing made you happy today?
carol anne


when your dad tries to convince his daughters he’s not an alcoholic

so a couple of days ago my sister and me were in the car with dad. we were driving to my parents house. all of a sudden my dad said, i dont drink a lot. if i drink by day, then i dont drink at night. me and laura just sat there with our mouths open. because that is so far from the truth. if he goes out to a pub by day for 3 pints, then the same night he’ll drink cans of beer at home. it was like he was telling us this, and he really believed what he was saying. i said nothing, but i wanted to. laura said something to pacify him. that sorta denial and hiding things drives me crazy. he is an alcoholic, thre is no getting away from that fact. no he doesnt drink half as much as he did a couple years ago. but he’s still a bad alcoholic. so why is he trying to convince us he isnt? why, when we are adults now, and we know the truth? he’s just lying to himself, and believing his own lies. how sad is that?