#socs feeling grounded

Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is ground. Use it as a noun or a verb in any tense (i.e. grind). Have fun!

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As I sit
I feel grounded
My surroundings
Feel nice
Warm, safe
I feel loved
By my mom
My dog
My friends
I am comforted
Feels so good to feel secure
Safe
Loved
A warm hot soak
In a bath
Of bubbles
A hot cup of tea
Comforting words
A warm embrace
All things that
Ground me to the present
And that my friends
Is amazing!

http://lindaghill.com/2019/10/11/the-friday-reminder-and-prompt-for-socs-oct-12-19/

One liner wednesday, late but here it is!

In honour of world mental health day today…heres my inspiring words for linda g hills one liner wed.

I’m not crazy just because I live with did! I’m normal, just like you! The only difference is, I share my body with a lot of people, alters, parts, whatever you wanna call us!
Being multiple means there is more of me to love!
Having did makes me unique!
I love my alters, they saved my life!

http://lindaghill.com/2019/10/09/one-liner-wednesday-my-dog-the-scarf/

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Fowc: My partner

I havent talked to my partner jess in weeks. I wish I could. I have tried calling her. But the facility she’s at they dont seem to answer the phone. I guess I’ll just have to keep on trying until someone answers it. I get disheartened though. I’m sure she thinks I dont care, or I cant be bothered to call. Nothing is further from the truth. I miss her so much. I miss all of their system. Its hard though when she’s in that residential facility. Things have changed so much, our relationship has changed so much. She’s been there almost 5 years now. 5 long years. Thats a long time. And honestly? I dont know if she’s ever coming out of there. I just dont know. She doesnt know either. Part of me thinks she wont. Its very tough to see her be in there. Our kids dont understand why their mommy, because jess was a mom to them, they just dont understand why they cant see her, talk to her, hear her read to them. Its heartbreaking. I hope we get to talk soon. I just miss our long talks, where we’d put the world to rights. Our deep conversations. I miss those.

http://fivedotoh.com/2019/10/07/fowc-with-fandango-partner/

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A car conversation with my niece

So this is the conversation that took place in the car between my 11 year old niece Lauren and I yesterday.

Lauren: Can you see colors? Or what do you see?
Me: No, I cant see any colors.
Lauren: So its all black?
Me: Well no, its not black either. I know when its dark and bright, but thats just something in my brain that makes it like that, its not actually my eyes showing me that.
Lauren: But why?
Me: Well I have no backs to my eyes. I was born without them.
Lauren: But cant you get new backs?
Me: Unfortunately not sweetie. You have to grow with them, you cant replace them.
Lauren: But cant you get surgery?
Me: Well if I had millions of bucks I would.
Lauren: But can you actually get surgery to fix your eyes?
Me: I dunno hun, I doubt it.
Lauren: I’d hate to not be able to see.
Me: Oh I dont mind, why would you hate it?
Lauren: I’d be so paranoid not being able to see.

Bless her. The innocence of it. Its the first time she’s really spoken to me about my blindness, besides asking a few questions about it when she was younger.

She must have been thinking about it. She’s at that age now, where she wants answers to everything.

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