Working on us prompt, week 7, suicide and suicidal ideation

Becky over at beckys mental mess is doing her working on us mental health prompt series again this week. the prompt for this week, which is week 7 is a prompt about suicide and suicidal ideation.

Prompt #1 Questions

Have you ever experienced suicidal thoughts?
Yes. I experience them a lot. I have done so for years
Have you ever attempted suicide?
Yes. I’ve overdosed on numerous occasions. It was not pleasant. All of my attempts have been overdoses.
Were you ever hospitalized for a suicidal attempt and/or ideation?
Yes. After some of my overdoses I was hospitalised for ongoing medical symptoms. After I got medically cleared I was sent to the psych unit for ongoing treatment for my suicidal ideation. Sometimes I’d spent weeks in there.
when you were hospitalized, what was your experience like?
It was mostly ok. Sometimes it wasnt, but most of the time it was a good experience. At least for the last 6 years that I’ve been seeing dr. barry. She understands me. She gets it and gets how I feel and why I am suicidal. Before I saw her, I had a lot of really bad experiences in hospital.
Do you ever feel suicidal ideation since your release?
Yes. It depends, sometimes I feel it a lot, depends on if I am low, depressed etc. If I am, then the suicidal thoughts come. Thats never pleasant.


Phone check in with my CPN Sarah

So yesterday, my CPN sarah, CPN which stands for community psychiatric nurse, phoned me for a check in. Dr. Barry had asked her to do that, since she wasnt able to see me this week. It was a 10 minute phone call. We talked about how I was doing, and managing eileens break. She congratulated me on managing so well. She said I always try my best to cope, that meant a lot to me that she saw that and noticed it. We talked about my sleep, and I told her I am taking the haldol when I dont sleep for more than 2 or 3 nights, she said that was the right thing to do. I made sure to tell her my sleep patters are all off, and I hope she’ll write it in my notes so dr. barry will know before I see her next week. We also talked about slimming world. She asked how I am doing with that, am I still going, and I told her I was. We’re not planning to check in again before Eileens return, but she did offer that if I am struggling I can call and leave a message for her, thats nice to know I can do that, I probably wont have to but its nice to know the offer is there.


Working on us prompt, week 6

Becky blogs over at beckys mental mess and she is doing the working on us prompt again this week, so I thought I’d participate!


  • Write your own post and create a pingback to the original post here.
  • There are no right or wrong answers. Write in any format you see fit. (Answers, fiction, non-fiction, poetry, poem, short proseanything).
  • You can do one or all prompts.
  • You have from July 10th. through to July 17th to submit your entries.

  • Please reblog the original post in order to spread more awareness.
  • If you the blogger have a suggestion/question you want to ask in the future weeks, please submit them in the comment section of this post.
  • Lets see if we can get some men involved in this weeks prompts, your feelings a validated here too!
  • Plus, as an added bonus, whoever responds to the following prompts will automatically be reblogged to promote your blog site

Week #6 Prompts:

(Note: The reason why I selected this weeks topic is based on reading so many blogs that have pertained to this very subject matter in recent weeks, Depression and I think it would do a bit of good if we all shared about it in detail, and perhaps really help one another out with the same issue).

Prompt #1 Questions:

  1. There are so many varieties of depression out there, such as Bipolar Depression, and (SAD) Seasonal Affective Disorder. What type of depression do you suffer from, or have?
  2. I have clinical depression, at least that is what I was diagnosed with in my late teens, the diagnosis hasnt ever been changed, although my current psychiatrist seems to think I have rapid cycling depression, and she may do a further evaluation on me in the future to try to figure out exactly if my depression type has changed.
  3. What do you do to fight your depression? (Meaning, therapy, medications, meditation, ECT). To fight my depression I use coping skills, meds, support of family and friends, my blog, the support of my therapist and psychiatrist and I also read self help books and articles.
  4. Does anything help you, and if so What? Blogging, reading, relaxation and meditation, medication, hot showers, my dog, my friends and family, the sun, amongst other things.

Becky also provided picture prompts to do, but I chose not to participate in those this week.


Working on us mental health prompt, week 4

This week I am again participating in beckys working on us mental health prompt. Becky blogs over at Beckys mental mess, I urge you to go check her out if you dont know her already! She is an amazing blogger, so kind, supportive, and caring!
This week she gave us two prompts, a questions prompt and a photo prompt. I am choosing to participate in the questions prompt.
Below you’ll find the questions, and my answers.

Prompt #1 Questions:

How do you deal with the Stigma surrounding your mental disorder/illness?

I write a blog to raise awareness! My disorder is rare, I have did, did is so misunderstood in the mental health community. So I write my blog to raise awareness of the disorder.

Does the Stigma associated with mental health bother you? If so, in what way?

Yes. People think those of us with did are monsters! I’m not saying everyone does, but the media has made sure that did is something to be afraid of, they either sensationalise it or else make us all out to be freaks and monsters!

I absolutely hate it!

Once again thanks to becky of beckys mental mess her post is below if you want to read and participate!


I have a mentoring apt this morning

I’m heading in to the basement club this morning for an appointment with my mentor aisling.
I was going to cancel it, because I was feeling lazy, but then I said to myself I need to just get up and go. So that is what I am planning on doing.
I will stay in there for a few hours, maybe 3 hours.
I think it will do me good to be out of the house. I eventually slept last night, after being very unsettled for hours. I slept for maybe 5 or 6 hours in total.
Having the apt with my mentor will give me something to focus on, so I will write about it later on today when I get home. So stay tuned!


June 19th, week 3, mental health:working on us series

Becky has started a wonderful series on her blog, called, working on us!
I thought I’d participate this week!
The prompt is below! And my answers to the questions too!
First though the rules!

Each week I will ask a question or questions pertaining to mental health and add a photo prompt. Your job, if you so choose to join along, is to write a post on your own blog, and creating a ping-back to the original post.

It is up to you the reader to decide how you want to answer questions and/or photo prompt. If you want to write a non-fictional or fictional piece, poetry, whatever Whatever you choose to do, I will, therefore, reblog what you have written. This is one way to not only promote your site but also spread awareness to all things mental health related.

As an added bonus Since there are so many different mental health illnesses/disorders, YOU, the blogger can send me a comment as to what you would like to be the next question (s), and they will be addressed in future posts.

What is the reason behind the Mental Health Prompts of Working on Us (?) Its fairly simple actually. Id like this series to be an all-inclusive mental health community blog in order to be a source of more support towards one another. Ideas, suggestions, and advice can be shared amongst the group.

And this weeks prompt is…

Here are a few coping statements, do you agree or disagree? Even if your answer is yes or no, please explain:

  1. This situation of sitting on a fully packed train either makes you feel uncomfortable or unpleasant, but I can accept it? I can accept it, I do feel pretty uncomfortable, but its a managable feeling, I am ok in crowds mostly, I dont get too anxious, not unless I am already struggling with anxiety from something else thats going on with me.
  2. Can I ride out the wave of anxiety, or do I feel like I need professional help now? I try to ride it out mostly, but I do also think I need help. I take meds, I talk to my therapist and psychiatrist, their input is valuable and really helps me process how I am feeling.
  3. Do you practice coping skills? If so, what works best for you? Journaling, reading, listening to music, walking on my treadmill, talking to friends, watching a show on tv, a

cup of tea, a shower.


Mental wellness challenge, day two!

Day Two.

Create an emergency playlist for times when you need love and comfort.

So, I love music. Music is so healing. It speaks to me. So many songs move me, speak to how I feel. I play music almost every day.

I have spotify, and alexa, and I use both on a regular basis, I also have apple music, which I use on my I phone.

I like to make playlists. I make themed playlists, its so much fun picking out songs to put on them.

My 5 main go to playlists are:

Broadway tunes and show tunes

Songs to play to make me happy

Sad songs

Disney playlist

Love songs

I have others too, but those are my main five.

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