Food scares me, from Emily

Hi hi everybody

It be emily

I am very stressed

I want to restrict

I only want to drink and not eat

I don’t want to touch food

I cant, I just cant

I feel horrible

I been having memories that feel icky

My whole body hurts

And all I want to do is throw up

I want to so bad

So because Carol Anne said no to that

Now I won’t eat

I said we aren’t going to eat today

Only drink

And only water, no food

I know I’m bad

I know you all think I’m crazy

But please try to understand

Food scares me

It repulses me

I feel so gross

So fat and so ugly

I want to just disappear

The memories are making me crazy

I just feel so, so crazy

Butterfly hugs,

Loves you,