stupid dumb poem by allie

slowly ticks the clock
the sound seems to mock
we’d go to bed but we forgot
memories make our brain rot
sun down to sun up we sit
thinking and thinking on it
the moon peaking in
reminds us of blood and sin
nightly torture deep in the past
so many years ago.. but it lasts
no way to shut off our mind
so day after day you’ll find
insomnia

allie

Poetry

when your engulfed in a memory
and you simply cant see
that its now not then
and you are safe
no one will hurt you again
when the pain overflows
and it has nowhere to go
your tears fall like rain
and you think you’ll go insane
then you reach out your hand
pat your dog
that right there is love
love and security
and so you can see
that it is 2017
you are safe
in another time and in another place

Glaring, daily word prompt

I AM ANGRY. I AM ANGRY AT THE MAN WHO TOOK SO MUCH FROM ME IN MY CHILDHOOD.
BUT…
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AT HIM WONT MAKE HIM SEE WHAT HE HAS DONE. HE DOESNT CARE. THATS HARD TO SWALLOW. HE IS A THIEF, ROBBING ME OF MY INNOCENCE.
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AT HIM, PENETRATING HIS SOUL WITH MY ANGER WONT DO ME ANY GOOD. I WONT HEAL, AND HE WILL STILL WIN.
I WILL NOT CHOOSE TO STAY ANGRY. I WILL NOT CHOOSE
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INSTEAD I CHOOSE TO HEAL

LIZ

Daily word prompt-delivery

Its so so important when you have a mental at
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of services happens efficiently.

Consumers, the patients, need to advocate, and keep advocating. You and only you know what you need. No one else can tell you that. You know your body. You know how you feel and who can help you.

We are very lucky. We have a great team behind us. With a did diagnosis and with complex ptsd, things can be complicated. With these conditions, you do need a good team behind you in order to improve.

Our psychiatrist dr. Barry is wonderful. She is empathic, she is validating, she gets it, and gets us. She listens, that is the most important thing. She questions how things are for us, and then, she listens to the answers we give her.

She’s been our psychiatrist now for almost 5 years. Wow, has it been that long? It sure doesn’t feel that long. It seems like it was only yesterday when I was first introduced to her and it wasn’t under the best circumstances.

I was really ill. I had come into hospital in a bit of a crisis. I was very triggered. I remember telling her I didn’t know why I was triggered. She didn’t believe me. She said you must know, you are living with this condition daily. That was one of the most profound things she ever said to me.

I am living with did. I am the expert. Only I can know how I feel. Only I know my triggers.

I also have a wonderful therapist. I see her weekly and I’ve also been seeing her almost 5 years. She is truly a godsend. So amazing. She has saved us on many occasions and she has taught us much about healing and given us many tools to help us heal.

Its great that I have such a good
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of services to help with my mental health. Without my team, psychiatrist, therapist, OT, community psychiatric nurse and social worker behind me, I am not sure I’d be where I am in my healing today.
I owe all of my thanks to them.

such a wonderful saturday

saturdays been so good! I had a chilled out sort of day. I relaxed, I binge watched tv, I read, I slept. Well I didnt sleep much last night so I napped a little this afternoon. I hung out with mom for a while, we chatted about this and that while she painted the wall in the bedroom. I stayed in my pjs all day today. And I am not one bit sorry! Its been a really good day all around. Tonight my two aunts came over to mom and dads house. mom and both of my aunts were drinking, I wasnt. My diet is too important to me to drink and ruin my progress. But we chatted and listened to music. My aunts are moms sisters. I love hanging out with them. My sister did not come over today with the kids like she normally would on a saturday. She went to her partners family instead. They wont be over tomorrow either. Its so weird not to have the kids here. The house is so quiet without them. I just remembered I gotta take my night meds. I almost forgot about them. Better go do that now guys. Catch you all later.

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