Living life with dissociative identity disorder and complex ptsd
Here we go! Weigh in day. That time, that dreaded time of the week. Oh god, please let me have a good result this morning. Please. I was so good this week. So so good and I didnt eat junk food. I ate loads of fruit, vegetables, and I drank a ton of water. So hopeful I’ve done enough. But we’ll see.
Wish me luck!
Its weigh in day. And I am dreading it.
I wasnt totally on plan this past week. I only hope I have done enough and that I will be down when I get weighed.
I’m kinda thinking I may not be down. But you can never tell, you just never know how its going to go.
I’m leaving in 20 minutes to go to my group, be weighed in, and then stay for the talk. I cheated, and weighed myself at home this morning, but I cant go by that. I dont know if my scales is accurate, so I’ll go by the slimming world one instead.
Anyway, wish me luck!
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I just completed my first 30 minute workout of the week! I feel fab now! I cant believe I did it! Exercised for 30 minutes! Yay! I am delighted with myself. I finished it, and then drank a bottle of water to cool down. I entered in the details on the app on my phone. I’m not sure how many steps I did as I didnt have my phone with me, but I’m sure it was close to 10 thousand. I hope it was. I am determined to work out each morning, for at least 20 to 30 minutes. Today was day one. And I smashed it!
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I cant quite believe it!
Biggie, our parents dog, has made a miraculous recovery!
He seems to be fine again! He is eating, drinking, and he’s walking fine!
I am so, so elated! He is such a trooper!
We’re all super happy! He might have another couple of months with us! Yay!
I dont know if it was a bug he caught, from something he ate while he was out in the garden, not sure, but whatever it was, he has recovered!
That dog is a miracle dog! Thank god and thank you all for all of the prayers!
So I know I said I wouldnt go to be weighed this week. Well I changed my mind and I went!
And I am so glad I did!
I was very apprehensive about going, but I faced my fear of the scales and I just went!
And it payed off!
I was down a pound! I know a pound isnt much but I was thrilled to be down even a little bit!
It gave me the boost I needed!
I felt great! I do wish the weight would come off faster than it has been, but its coming off and that is the main thing!
Next week I am going to go to the morning group, and from here on out my weigh in will be on tuesday mornings, instead of tuesday evenings. I am hoping that going in the mornings, will give me a more accurate picture of what I actually weigh.
But for now I am super happy! I now only have 1 pound to lose from what I gained after christmas! 1 pound and I’ll be back to where I was on christmas Eve!
I’m finally starting to exercise every day. I was meant to start on January 1st. But I didnt get to do that. I kinda got sidetracked. So finally on January 7th I am starting, a week late but…oh well. Better late than never, right?
So I am going on the treadmill today, and every day from now on. I really want to shift the fat around my stomach. I really want to tone up also. My plan is to go on the treadmill for at least 15 to 20 minutes every day. I am hoping to do it twice a day on some days. I wont be able to sustain twice a day every day though but thats ok.
I am so excited about starting to work out. I am planning on either reading a book or listening to music while I work out. I have to do something, otherwise I’ll be bored. Walking on the treadmill without doing something is just boring.
If I do this for 3 months straight, I’m sure I’ll see great results.
I have decided not to go and get weighed tomorrow. I am going to wait until next week to go. I am switching my group from the evening time to the morning, so my PA Frances can come with me. I hope that getting weighed in the morning will give me a more accurate picture of my overall weight. I was up 2 pounds after Christmas, and I don’t thihnk I’ve lost that yet. I’m pretty sure I haven’t. And I don’t want to be disappointed. So I just refuse to go tomorrow and be disappointed when I haven’t lost anything. I hope I’m making the right decision. I think I am though. Its so hard losing weight. Its such a roller coaster. I’m slowly getting there, very slowly though.
