An update on mom

Mom is still very ill. We went out to meet our aunts. Then we all went to a restaurant so that our aunts could have some food. Mom and me didnt have any…well mom wasnt eating, and I’d already had breakfast so I just had a cup of tea. Mom kept needing the bathroom, she has darting pain in her stomach, and she kept needing the toilet, my aunts went looking in a few shops, mom and me just sat outside and waited for them. We were going to go to another shopping mall outside the town, to look for something for me to wear to my cousins wedding, but mom felt too ill. So I came back to the hotel room with her. We just made it back, and she went in the bathroom and threw up everywhere, I feel so sorry for her. Its a horrible thing to be so ill. I really hope she’s going to be ok. If you pray please pray this thing that she’s contracted goes away soon. Any and all prayers or positive thoughts and vibes are welcome.
Thanks guys,


Night time is…

Nights are A scary time for me
Ghosts from my past
Creep in
Unseen faces
Tell me things
Whisper in my ear
Haunt me
I think crazy thoughts
Cant quite stop them
Even though I want to
Sleep does not come
No matter what I do
Holding on
Held together with superglue
I sit, wait
For the night to end
For the daylight to return
Only then
Will I be
Ok, safe, happy

May we…

May we raise children who love the unloved things, the dandelion, the worms and spiderlings. Children who sense the rose needs the thorn and run into rainswept days the same way they turn towards sun… And when they’re grown and someone has to speak for those who have no voice may they draw upon that wilder bond, those days of tending tender things and be the ones.
Nicolette Sowder


Broadband wos

so I’ve had ongoing issues lately with my internet. its been acting up. disconnecting for a few mins, then coming back on again, this could happen up to 4 times an hour. not all the time, but every few days at least. so a technician from my ISP provider is going to come out on Thursday, thank god! im paying enough for the damn thing. I want it to work! my tv also uses the internet and it wont work without it. so hopefully on Thursday it will be solved. its a pain that it keeps going off! I depend on it and I need it. I need it to work!
Im just frustrated with it. I am also frustrated with the customer service people who answer the phone! The last time I called the lady only wanted to know if I am blind how do I cope? How do I manage? what business is it of hers? She’s supposed to be helping me fix my internet not asking me a ton of personal questions!
When I told her I couldn’t see colours and I needed more of an explanation she didn’t know what to say or do. She said well if you cant see colours then I don’t know what to tell you to do! Talk about having no disability awareness training! She obviously had no clue and so I said ok then whatever, and I just hung up.