EILEEN EMAILED US! SHE RESPONDED!

TO MY EMOTIONAL EMAIL WHERE I BASICALLY TOLD HER I WAS FAILING AT THERAPY! SHE RESPONDED, AND SHE SAID WE ARENT! I LOVE HOW ATTUNED SHE IS TO US! SHE ALWAYS KNOWS WHEN TO RESPOND AND WHEN ONE IS WARRANTED! THANKS EILEEN! I LOVE YOU!
PIXIE

HER RESPONSE…

Hi Everyone, I am sorry to hear that you got the impression that I was mad at you or that I thought you were doing badly in therapy. I apologise if I sounded critical. I actually think you are doing very well in therapy! It isnt a case of if I feel bad Im not doing well in therapy. I totally understand that when we are beginning to open up and talk, feelings and all sorts of reactions come with that. It is a delicate balance of doing a little, then letting it settle.
I do hear how much I mean to you, rest assured that I am on this journey with you in all the ups and downs.
Eileen

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POETRY, TINY CHILD SO WILD!

tiny child so wild

you roar with great spirit

you cry so loud sometimes

i know everyone can hear it

tiny child so wild

what hurts your heart so

i wish i could help you out

give you a hug and not let go

tiny child so wild

why do you push me away

is there anything that i can do

even one word i can say

tiny child so wild

who has broken you

i wish i had a magic wand

or at least loves bottle of glue

tiny child so wild

how do i piece you back together

your fragile wings are broken now

and i can’t even fix one feather

tiny child so wild

howl with all your might

let out the feelings that hold you down

and bind you with their fright

tiny child so wild

i love you my dear

i wipe your eyes time and again

and wish away each tear

tiny child so wild

if there is anything i can do

let me know in some way

because i am here for you

C2012

THIS WAS WRITTEN BY ME, LIZ IN HONOUR OF OUR YOUNGEST INSIDERS, WHO WERE STRUGGLING SO MUCH WHEN I WROTE THIS POEM.

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Insomnia rules!

I barely slept. I couldnt drop off. I didnt go to bed until 1 AM. But then I felt unsettled. I have a lot on my mind. Just thinking about memories and stuff. Tried to settle. Brought Nitro on the bed with me, cuddled with him. Eventually fell asleep. Woke again at 3:30. Now am up and have made some of the very yummy coffee that our wonderful kind friends sent us. Doubtful I’ll go back to sleep. Oh well. 2 hours is better than no hours I suppose.

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SNOW WHITE, A POEM, WITH BEE’S POETRY PROMPT!

HERE I AM UP AT 1 AM NOT ABLE TO SLEEP. SO I THOUGHT I’D WRITE. I THOUGHT I’D PARTICIPATE IN BEE’S BLOG PORMPT WHICH SHE POSTED A FEW DAYS AGO NOW. SO BELOW FIND MY POEM, MY SCRIBBLES, WITH THE PROMPT WORDS, SNOW WHITE!

IN A SNOW WHITE DRESS
SHE STANDS
BAREFOOT AND FEAR GRIPPING HER
TWISTING AND TURNING INSIDE OF HER
THE FEAR MULTIPLIES AS THE MEN ENTER
THEY WALK TOWARDS HER
PULL OFF HER SNOW WHITE DRESS
START TO TOUCH HER
IN WAYS SHE HATES
HURTING HER…
ABUSING HER…
CAUSING MORE FEAR TO GRIP HER HEART
HER DRESS LIES ON THE FLOOR
TORN AND TATTERED
BROKEN AND BRUISED
SHE TRIES TO FREE HERSELF
BUT ALAS SHE CANT
SO INSTEAD…
SHE DISSOCIATES
FLIES AWAY UP UP AND AWAY
ABOVE HER BODY SHE HOVERS
AND WAITS
WAITS FOR THIS TO JUST BE OVER

WILLOW

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Christmas cookies

My friend sent me a Christmas box. Contained three varieties of cookies that she baked. They were chocolate chip, peanut butter, and oatmeal raisin. I tasted some of them already. They taste so yummy

I love this time of year. I love getting treats in the mail. It’s actually really nice to get treats at Christmas time. Really makes my day brighter.

Thank you my sweet friend for baking cookies for me. I really appreciate it

Random snippets

so my days been pretty awesome. a whole lot of nothing, thats what i did. i was just too lazy to do anything. i didnt go anywhere. i didnt do much of anything except chill out. i watched a lot of tv with my parents. it was nothing that was any good really, just quizzes and the news and things like that. i slept in late. i actually slept until past noon. i couldnt believe that i did. i woke at 8:30 but went back to bed after letting nitro out and feeding him. then i just fell right back to sleep! and when i awoke again it was lunch time! i was like wow! could not believe it! tomorrow is my therapy session. last one of the year. i am excited. we have a nice card for eileen. looking forward to giving it to her. in the afternoon i am going out with my mom. we’re going to sort out the rest of the items we’re buying out of the funding i got from cara nua. we need to order the cooker, dryer and vacume cleaners. if there is money left over i may also get a new tv. i want to use my apple tv to stream net flicks but the tv i have there is no space for the cable i need to go in so i can stream it using my apple tv, my tv is old, so i said i’d buy a new one if there was money left over, put it in my bedroom and then i can stream netflicks in there. im not sure how giving the cheque to them will go, whether they’ll need it to clear before they deliver our items. or if they’re used to dealing with people who get funding from cara nua. so i really dont know. i need a few other little bits tomorrow too so will get those while we’re out. other than that i have no plans tomorrow. i am just going to enjoy my therapy session, enjoy the time we have together before our christmas break.

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