xmas cards and my mom came through for me

i feel great because I acomplished a lot today. i got all of my xmas cards written. now i have to just send them off which i am going to do tomorrow. i have about 20 cards going to the USA. that will cost me a small fortune but I dont care, I love writing the cards and knowing I am going to make my friends happy. i also have cards going to the netherlands, poland, and the UK. i hope my friends will like the cards i chose. i put a lot of thought into choosing them. a cool thing happened when i was writing the cards. mom was helping me. and i needed her to write a few of the cards because a few people i am sending them to are sighted. so i said mom, i need you to write cards, and I need you to sign them Carol anne. And she didnt protest. She said ok and she did it! I was stunned! I told her that Carol anne is an alter. She never said a word never acted like I was crazy or it was bad or wrong. Is this my mom? I could not believe it. so yeah am feeling thankful that my mom just did what i asked without making a fuss about it. thanks, mom. she’s really starting to come through for me lately.
carol anne



Things I achieved today…

Got up on time this morning
Took all my meds
Went to therapy, talked about hard things
Ate healthy all day
Took part in a team work exercise at the ILS course
Made a new friend
Helped a girl with a learning disability by answering her repetative questions and not getting annoyed at that
got some of my college work done

Am feeling great and so accomplished!

Share your world October 30th

Where do you eat breakfast?
Sitting at my kitchen table mostly. Or else I eat while I’m rushing around getting ready for my day.
Given the choice of anyone in the world, who would you want have an evening with?
Oprah winfrey. I really admire her.
If you could be a tree or plant, what would you be?
An oak tree. They are so very strong.
What inspired you or what did you appreciate this past week? Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.
The love of my dog, and my friends, inspired me this past week.

Todays plans

so i called my friend, she’s not coming over because she’s doing something else this afternoon and wont be able to come. Ah well. It was worth a shot to ask her. Instead I am organising my external hard drives. I have so much media on them and I need to organise it better. After that I’m going to have an early lunch and then watch some stuff on tv this afternoon. I’m not short on things that i want to see. I might, if I feel up to it do some college work later this evening as well. We shall see how it goes.

not a great night

so havent had the best of nights. did not sleep good. kept having freaking nightmares. feel tired this morning but woke up at 6, should say gave up at 6, got up, fed and let nitro out, then tried going back to bed to read for a while. brought nitro on the bed for cuddle time, and he stayed there for about an hour before starting to get restless again so it meant I had to get up again and let him out. its a bank holiday here today so pretty much everywhere is closed. i’m staying home and chilling out. i think that will be the best thing for me. at least that way if I feel like a nap later then I can take one but probably that wont happen. I might invite my friend Norma over in the afternoon if she wants to come over.

mid afternoon musings

so my saturdays going well. my niece and nephew are gone home so peace at last lol. mom and i had a small argument earlier where she yelled at me because she said I annoyed her and was being unappreciative of what she’s doing for me. i stormed off feeling hurt and stormed in to my room and was determined that I’d stay in here all weekend. lol the logic of it now it seems so childlike. or teenagery. a few mins later mom walked in with a caramel latte for me, a peace offering. her way of apologising without actually saying sorry. i was grateful though that it was over. i did say to her after a while that I’d appreciate it if she didnt shout at me, that I am an adult and she cant treat me as if I’m not. she seemed receptive to what I said so thats good at least. other than that saturday is going well. i’m chilling out. i didnt even get dressed today, i refused to get dressed haha. my friend Maeve just rang me asking if I want to go see a band tomorrow night as its the jazz weekend here in cork but I said no. I dont fancy being out in a pub in crowds of people unable to hear anyone because the music is so loud. I would prefer to stay home and watch x factor. which is what i am going to do tonight also. mom is going to see her brothers wife the lady i mentioned some time back whose dying of bone cancer. i havent gone but i did speak to her on the phone this past week. she’s still hanging in there with us 2 weeks after recieving the news that she’s terminal and only had a week to a month left to live. Tomorrow mom said she’d take me grocery shopping. I need to get a few bits to tide me over this week while I’m on midterm. I made a list and I wont be straying from it. Mondays a bank holiday so I plan on having another chill out day.

A friends birthday

so last night my friend maeve from the basement club called me. it was out of the blue. like i see her a lot, but she doesnt call me a lot outside of when we see one another at the basement club. so it was a nice surprise.

she said it was another members birthday on Saturday. her name is Roz. and there is a party in a restaurant in the city centre. a group of members organised it. and did i want to come.

of course i said yes i did. i love a good party. and to be thought of was so nice. to be included. it feels so good. so i’m going to go.

it will make for a nice saturday afternoon. i will get her a card today and some lottery tickets. she wouldnt be a great friend of mine, maeve is more friendly with roz than I am, but I know her, and I like her.

so now I have weekend plans for saturday. yay.