so I am a happy camper this morning! I slept great! I needed the sleep badly! I ended up going to visit my friend norma yesterday afternoon, I stayed there for about 3 hours. Then I came home, ate dinner, and decided to have an early night. I was in bed by 9 PM. And asleep by 10. And I only woke up twice during the night, for about 5 minutes each time. I am delighted. I feel much better this morning having gotten some good sleep. Im still feeling low though. I am trying to remember to take my meds every morning. I take my prozac in the morning, and my other mood stabiliser at night. I am trying hard to remember them. So far it is working. I have been taking them regularly.
My PA is coming in an hour. We’re just going to do some housework today and I need to get her to go to the store for me too. She’ll be here for 2.5 hours. I’m also meant to work today. Not sure yet whether I will go in or not though. I may just stay home today. I am kinda not really feeling up to going in but we’ll see, I may feel differently as the morning progresses.
Well going to go drink my coffee, and get dressed. Happy tuesday everyone!
5 AM and not a wink of sleep! I am so frustrated. Meds on bord, and still, nothing.
This is crazy. Thank god I dont have too much I need to do today. I can nap if needs be, but I am going to try not to do that. So then maybe I can sleep properly tonight.
Im still thinking I’ll go visit my friend norma today. spend a few hours with her. I need to pick some things up from her anyway, so maybe I will go do that.
It will keep me busy, and I’ll be less likely to nap then.
How would your friends describe you?
with the grieving
Death comes to us all
at some point
we cant avoid it
but I will commiserate
as I think
grief and dying
to those who are left behind
on their sad loss
such a sad day
is better off now
and he was loved
always remember that
Dedicated to the family of my dads best friend
#NDRW – #61
You remember some weeks back I told you that my dads friend, his best friend, was dying? And at the time he went to visit him? His friend had a huge tumour on his lung, it was inoperable. Well he died last night, at 2 AM this morning, its so sad.
My dad is so upset. Naturally he is. His friend is being cremated. His cremation is happening today. I thought it was happening pretty quick, but maybe that’s what he wanted.
Before the cremation, he’s reposing at the funeral home for a few hours. I don’t know though, why he’s reposing, as that’s not what he wanted, since he was all swollen up, his head, hands, legs etc were all swelled up for the last few weeks before his death.
My dad is finding it extremely difficult to cope. He’s not good at showing emotions. You can tell he’s upset but he doesn’t want to let me in, he really doesn’t want to admit how upset he actually is about the whole thing.
He only saw his friend that one time before he died. He did tell me that the reason he didn’t go see him again is that he didn’t want to remember him being ill, he wanted to remember him the way he used to be.
That’s fair enough I suppose. He’s worried now about seeing him today in the funeral home. He said he will probably look awful. And he’s worrying about having that image of him burned into his mind.
I hope he’ll be able to cope. I worry about him. I hope it wont be too hard for him to see his friends dead body.
If you pray, please pray my dad will be ok.
I’d appreciate it. thanks, guys!
Today I am so grateful to those who have shown me kindness! I feel blessed to have so many wonderful people around me, all willing to show me love and kindness, it feels so good!
Today I thank the following people, for showing me that there are good people in the world!
My CPN sarah for checking in with me!
my mom for knowing when I needed help and making sure I got it.
my dad for giving me medicine to help my cramping stomach
My dog who isn’t technically a person but he’s a breathing living thing who shows me love every day!
My wp family, for always supporting me through everything!
My email buddies
Thanks again everyone, where would I be without you all! Probably really screwed! Lol.
I am happiest when….
I am happiest when I am with family, or friends, or my dog!
Each of them makes me happy in a different way, but each of them makes me happy equally!
My dog is loyal, and so, so loving, we have such a close bond, it amazes me every day!
My family are my strength, I literally wouldnt be who I am today without them. They’ve always tried their hardest to be behind me in everything I do. We’ve had our ups and downs, it hasnt all been plain sailing, but then who doesnt have their ups and downs in families?
My friends are my world. I love them all. That includes bmy logger friends too! I love each and every one of you because you’ve brought something special to my life.
I love you all and want nothing but the best for all of you!
This is what makes me happy!
What makes you happy?