it me darina
I got a song fir ya all ta lisen to!
I love this one!
it so fun!
I dancing to it now!
it stil bes early in morning here
I finkin it 9 AM but I not sure!
anyways, we got all ar college work done yay!
so that means playin and dancing and havin a fun day yay!
I so so hapy!
no silly college work ta do!
heres tha song, its called dance monkey!
frum darina ballerina, im six yars old!
I AM WORN DOWN
I AM SO JADED
STILL I GO ON
I RISE UP
DO WHAT I NEED TO
TO SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD
I AM STRONG
DESPITE THINKING I AM NOT
I SHALL CONTINUE
I sit here
Darkness swallowing me up
As I try to speak
No words come
I am numb
Numb and alone
I say a silent prayer
But who am I praying to?
I pray the feelings subside
I am unable to hold in the tears
Silently they fall
As my dog sits beside me
Looking at me
Nudging me with his soft warm nose
Oh how I hate
This dark night
I want to just give up
Give up this fight
Karissa age 15
I just feel awful! I’ve been in bed all day, since I got home from therapy! I’ve been mostly sleeping!
I seem to have a heavy head cold! My nose feels all blocked up and I feel crappy!
I took some cold meds and am trying to just rest!
I dont think I’ll go into work today! And I cant go get my flu jab either!
They wont give you the jab if your ill!
So I think it is going to just be a resting kinda day for me today!
I need to take more meds soon!
I do feel really awful!
It kinda came on out of nowhere! I thought it was an after effect of our therapy session at first, but now I dont think it is!
If you can, please send me some positive vibes and or good thoughts!
how will therapy go?
I wish I knew
I’m not ready
To open up
I dont want to go there
DoI have to?
My fear, my anxiety
And I hope
She’s gentle today
with my heart
Willow age 23
Its 5 AM! I got awakened by heavy rain, and now its also thundering, the kids are very triggered, I am trying to comfort them, nitro is also a little unsettled by the noise, so its a bit of a disaster here, and I am crabby because I am still tired.
I need a coffee and maybe then I’ll perk up! I did let nitro out in between the showers, but I hated having to stand by the back door in the dark. It bothered me.
I turned on the radio for a while to drown out the noise. Normally I like the sound of rain but not tonight, tonight there is too much going on, and I cant listen to it.
I might read for a while when things settle down, if they do settle down.
Now though off to make a nice cup of coffee and maybe catch up on some blog reading!
We’re going back to therapy tomorrow! Yay!
I am so relieved!
I am relieved Eileen recovered quickly from her tummy bug!
Some of the insiders are not looking forward to therapy. I am, some of the kids are. Allie, Taylor, Lexi, all are.
Liz, not so much. I think because she has stuff going on for her. Stuff she needs to talk about.
We’re hoping that we wont lose our shit in the morning and end up going there in a bad state! Sometimes that happens for us!
I should probably text eileen in the morning before we leave. Let her know how we’re doing. Just so she knows what to expect.
Actually that is a good idea, I think I’ll do that.
Liz’s system, some of them are really panicking. They dont like talking about stuff. It feels like they shouldnt, they feel like its wrong to talk, even to eileen about their feelings, about whats coming up for them.
I’m sure once we get there they’ll calm down. Eileen has a great way of calming them down. She is really good at doing that.
Of course we arent able to relax tonight. Or sleep. Lucky for us we slept a little bit earlier. So we are wide awake now. Wide awake and mostly fretting and being emotional. Well Liz’s system are, and the feelings are filtering down to me.
I just am hoping that the session will be a good one tomorrow! Fingers crossed for us!