Living life with dissociative identity disorder and complex ptsd
hapy easter everybudy
gess wat
mom got us a cadburys cream egg
jus one
she knows we ar dieting
but her also know us kids wanted a treat
so her hand us dat and say
hapy easter
it was so cool
and so yummy
i ate it all up
carol anne said dat ther is 9 syns in it
dat is wat thay cal them in slimming world
wen you eat a fing wat is bad for you
but i don care how many ther is in it
it was nummy yum yum
did yu al hav a nise easter
love
darina ballerina i six
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A pic of me in my hotel room relaxing after some retail therapy 😄💜💜💞💞
What is the best food you’ve ever eaten?
Well its officially our birthday. We’re 39 today! Omg 39!
I feel so old!
I’m going away with mom for the weekend, we’re off to Killarney in Co. Kerry!
It is going to be so much fun! Just the two of us, a mom daughter weekend away together, something we havent done at all in my adult life!
It is something that I’ve always longed to do, and since our relationship got stronger, and better, I am now very happy that we’re finally doing it!
Our birthday is often filled with bad memories, and is often very hard. And a couple years we’ve been in hospital for it. Not this year though!
This year we’re going to make it fun!
So, my plan is to totally enjoy the day! happy birthday to us!
❤
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I AM PRONE
TO ANGER OUTBURSTS
TO RAGES SO WILD
THEY MAKE OTHERS AFRAID
I AM PRONE
TO HAVING AN ATTITUDE
AND IF YOU DONT LIKE IT, TOUGH!
I AM PRONE
TO BEING THE ALTER EVERYONE LOVES TO HATE
THE ONE MOST PEOPLE ARE AFRAID OF
THE ONE WHO WOULD TURN ON YOU IN A HEARTBEAT
BUT I AM ALSO PRONE
TO PROTECT MY PEOPLE FIERCELY
TO FIGHT FOR US UNTIL THE BITTER END
TO HAVE THE TOUGH CONVERSATIONS
I AM PRONE TO BEING HONEST
STRAIGHT TALKING
A SAY IT LIKE IT IS SORTA PERSON
I AM ME
PRONE TO SO MANY WAYS OF BEING
GET TO KNOW ME
IT’LL BE A WILD RIDE
WRITTEN BY LIZ, AN ALTER IN OUR SYSTEM
Dr. barry and me had a great apt yesterday. It was so lovely to see her. I was so looking forward to our apt after a 3 week break.
During our apt we were talking and she said to me…
Your out of the hospital two years this week. Were you aware of that?
Me? Two years, wow! It has flown!
Dr. barry: I’m so, so proud of you. Your doing great. Your managing so much at the moment, and your coping, you arent in crisis. Well done!
Just hearing her say those words, I’m so proud of you, really helped me so much. I am managing a lot. Easter is hard. Our birthday week is hard. I’ve been dealing with a lot of ptsd symptoms lately. But I am managing, I’m getting through each day. I’m finding that I am able to cope more nowadays.
A few years ago I’d never have been able to do that. I’d have drowned in all the turmoil of the emotional upheaval that is my life sometimes.. I’d have gone into a crisis. I’d have ended up in the psych ward.
Thats real progress that I’m not in there. And to hear dr. barry say that meant the world to me.
I want nothing more than to make her proud. She’s done so much for me. She’s been through so much with us. For six years she’s stood by our side, she has helped us through a whole lot of stuff and we are so so grateful for her support.
When we came out of her office and went to the desk to make the next apt, she asked the secretary to fit me in in two weeks time, the secretary said, I cant, your not here that week, is 3 weeks ok?
Dr. barry hesitated, knowing that I usually see her every two weeks, and knowing also that its hard for me to go longer than that, I panic, I usually cant cope, I get all worried and insecure. But I said, thats ok, 3 weeks is ok.
She said to me, are you sure? I said I was. As we walked together to the front entrance, she said to me, you know, I’m so, so proud of you, you know that? The fact that you even agreed to wait 3 weeks to see me, I know thats a huge deal for you.
I was touched that she realised how important it is to me and how I didnt agree to it lightly. I think we’ll be ok though, although eileen is on holidays too next week, so we have little support next week, but we are able to email eileen if we need to do that.
I’m happy we had such a great appointment, and it feels so nice to be told how proud she is of me. It makes me glow. My heart swells with pride.
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Another week gone by, time goes so fast. It’s time for me to go and get weighed in. Hoping hoping hoping to be down this week. We shall see. I guess only time will tell whether I’ve done enough this week or not. I hope I have. I’m really hopeful that I’ve done all the right things this week. So please guys wish me the best of luck. Here’s hoping for a good result tonight. I’ll be so happy if I’m down even 1 pound I’ll take a pound. But if I’m down more I’ll be happy to. Hope for the best anyway.
