fuck fuck fuck
my thoughts are racing. oh fuck. its baaad
i cant cope this these thoughts. just feel overwhelmed and sad.
oh gawd, why is it always at night?
why? i just want to sleep. but every time I try
The tears fall
Pain, raw pain
It threatens to overtake me
Think I should go sit with nitro, feel his soft fur against my cheek
now thats the best idea I’ve had all night
my mind is a tornado
bits and pieces
fly every which way
no rhyme or reason
an ocean of thoughts
threatening to engulf me
i try to switch off
but no, i cant
try to sleep
not happening either
so i sit here
my heads in a spin
its like a whirlwind
i’d love to connect with some of you on fb.
please friend me if you’d like to. my info is below.
Let me know if your going to add me so I know who you are and who to look out for.
I don’t have time to beat myself up over my fallible nature. Instead, I use my energy to learn from my past and let it inform my future. It’s time to own all of our glory, mistakes, mess and light and be gentle to ourselves. Let’s be kind to our spirits and celebrate the truth of our hearts.
Be the best you, you can be.
yes thats me, a nightowl. i cant sleep. probably because i slept late today, until 1:15 PM. so now I am up. its gone 2 AM. of course I’ve had plenty of cups of coffee. I started the prazacin tonight. 1 mg of it. so far no side effects thank goodness. liz is struggling tonight. she said she is feeling depressed. apathetic. she wrote a poem about it and after writing she said she felt better. when liz struggles it effects me. that is because we are connected. we feel each others feelings and when one of us does bad then the other usually is doing bad too. i’m sitting here now listening to apple music and catching up on blog ; posts. Is anyone awake? Are you struggling tonight? If so I’m here, struggling too, reach out to me and we can chat.
I’m not ashamed to be me. More than anyone else I know, I love my life and accept myself. What’s wrong with being unique? I am proud of everything that I am and will become.