Living life with dissociative identity disorder and complex ptsd
hapy easter everybudy
gess wat
mom got us a cadburys cream egg
jus one
she knows we ar dieting
but her also know us kids wanted a treat
so her hand us dat and say
hapy easter
it was so cool
and so yummy
i ate it all up
carol anne said dat ther is 9 syns in it
dat is wat thay cal them in slimming world
wen you eat a fing wat is bad for you
but i don care how many ther is in it
it was nummy yum yum
did yu al hav a nise easter
love
darina ballerina i six
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Mom is all better! She woke up feeling great! Well almost great. She is still a little bit weak, but overall she’s much much better.
We got showered and dressed and went downstairs and out of our hotel to a local restaurant for breakfast, it was really nice. Mom just had tea and toast, and I had a cooked breakfast, mine included bacon, sausage, hash browns, baked beans, eggs and toast and tea. It was so yummy and very reasonably priced.
I am not really meant to be eating hash browns or sausages, but I am away, so my diet has kinda gone out the window, well a little at least.
After our breakfast we went shopping as I wanted to get an outfit to wear at my cousins wedding which is in june. We looked in a shop I like, and I found a white pants, 3 quarter length pants, a summer pants. I also found a white and blue dress top, and a jacket to go over it, and a nice white pair of shoes, flat shoes with diamontes on them. After lunch we’re going to go to another store and get my accessories, my jewelry and a bag, and stuff like that.
Its been a nice relaxing morning. The weathers really nice. I even had to change my clothes as what I had on was too warm, so I changed into something lighter.
I’m really really glad mom is feeling better. That is such a relief to me. Thanks for all of the kind messages, support and prayers for her speedy recovery.
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A pic of me in my hotel room relaxing after some retail therapy 😄💜💜💞💞
I got some lovely gifts for my birthday. I got spoiled by my sister. She got me a set with some slippers, body lotion, and body wash in it. She also got me some hugo boss perfume. Thats a very expensive perfume, and it smells really good. She also got me this cute little stress ball, with a picture of a pug on it. And she gave me a card with 20 euro in it. I am planning on buying something nice with the money over the weekend. Maybe a new dress top or a pair of shoes.
My aunt thats moms sister gave me a lovely gift also. She gave me some perfum too, the same one dr. barry wears, so I am in my element now, as I smell like dr. barry. Its a really lovely perfume, I cant spell the name of it, its a really expensive one too though. She also gave me some body butter, and some bath chrystals.
My cards I got with my gifts are really nice too. I love getting cards. I saved mine and put them on moms mantelpiece.
Mom is going to buy my gift at the weekend, she said she’d get me something to wear when we go shopping. I cant wait to try on some clothes and pick something out.
Its so nice to be spoiled. I’m such a lucky duck.
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Well its officially our birthday. We’re 39 today! Omg 39!
I feel so old!
I’m going away with mom for the weekend, we’re off to Killarney in Co. Kerry!
It is going to be so much fun! Just the two of us, a mom daughter weekend away together, something we havent done at all in my adult life!
It is something that I’ve always longed to do, and since our relationship got stronger, and better, I am now very happy that we’re finally doing it!
Our birthday is often filled with bad memories, and is often very hard. And a couple years we’ve been in hospital for it. Not this year though!
This year we’re going to make it fun!
So, my plan is to totally enjoy the day! happy birthday to us!
❤
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I am so sad tonight. I had to quit college. I failed an assignment. I couldnt believe I got an F on it. I was heartbroken. I decided the pressure was too much. I cant keep everything going. I have way too much going on right now, what with symptoms flaring, and ptsd stuff coming up. Also I dont think I am cut out for college. I’m feeling pretty disheartened, but it was for the best. I think and feel I did the right thing.
We were almost done for the term anyway. I stuck it out as long as I could. But with all that is going on I couldnt keep it up. I feel like such a failure.
I feel like I constantly start things but dont finish them. This course was meant to help me out with extra training to help with my volunteering, but then, part of me says, well, I am already the expert, I have mental illness, I dont need training in it.
I guess its ok. I had to do what I had to do.
Just feel bad about it. I just emailed my coordinator to tell her of my plans.
I hope she’ll be ok with it.
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Tears
Cascading down my face
A torrent of emotions surfacing
All at once
I weep uncontrollably
Thinking of all that I have lost
Innocence stolen
A childhood lost
To abuse and neglect
From people entrusted to care
Care they did not
Hurt, trauma and abuse
Was what they put me through
For many, many years
My tears flow
Like a river
I wonder if the waters will ever subside
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