Cute moment with my nephew

Over the weekend, I promised my nephew that I’d give him a fidget spinner that I had, that someone gave me, but that I didn’t want any longer. He was delighted, and very enthusiastic about it.

On sunday when I went home to my own house from my parents, I meant to get it and give it to him. He didn’t come with us as he was out with his cousins then. I totally forgot to get it and give it to my mom to give to him. Naturally he was very upset about this. He wanted my sister to go back to my house to get it.

So I promised him that today I’d give it to him. And when he arrived with my mom I had it ready for him. He was thrilled and gave me a huge hug. A simple little fidget spinner, makes him so happy. How cute is that.

With all the tech gadgets, tablet, phone, etc, who’d have thought a fidget spinner would make his day? Its just so simple. I am very happy that I could make him happy. I will treasure his hug. It is going on my things to be thankful for list for today.

Having children

A friend of mine just wrote a post about having kids. I have been thinking on it. I am childless but not by choice. I am childless due to having no ovaries. I am also childless due to being a lesbian and unable to have kids in the natural way. If I had ovaries, and I was straight, I think I’d have kids. I’ve always wanted kids. I could adopt or foster kids, but due to my mental illnesses I doubt I’d be allowed. I think the social services are very strict on that. I’ve never tried though. I could do IVF but its far too expensive to try it. I desperately wish I had kids, though. I’ve always longed to be a mom. I do question my parenting skills though. I am not sure I would make a good mom. I find it desperately hard to mother my littles so I think mothering a child would be super hard for me. I wish I could give it a go though. I ache to be a mom. I long for it. I do have my niece and nephew who I love dearly. I am not their mom though. But I do give them ample love and affection. I dote on them. At least I can be a mom to my furbaby. That counts. I love him and dote on him too. I also think my blindness would prevent me from having kids, since I think I would be watched closely if I did have a child. I don’t particularly agree with this stance since my friends are blind and have kids, in fact my best friend has two, but then she has a sighted partner so that helps. I feel like my chance to have a child was kinda robbed from me. Because I didn’t have a choice as to whether my ovaries were removed, they had to be for medical reasons.

Proud of my niece

My sister had laurens parent teacher meeting yesterday afternoon.
I’m very very proud of Lauren. She is only 8 and she got top grades in both maths and English. Her teacher said she is in the top students in her class in those two subjects.
She also said Lauren was very polite, and helpful to other students.
She said that Lauren finishes tasks very quickly and has to be assigned extra work while the other students finish their tasks.
Its so heartening to know she’s exceling in school!
Today she came home with a Christmas card she designed, the school are selling the cards to raise needed funds. Mom and me and laura are all going to buy some of the cards she designed! The scene on them is a snowman and its beautiful.