So today, my question to you is this…
What has benefited you most in your healing journey?
For me, it is a few things. Writing is one. Having this blog, somewhere to share, has helped me so so much. I love my blog. I love all of you my blog buddies. Your all amazing and you’ve been so kind to me. It doesn’t go unnoticed.
Having a therapist has also helped us greatly. Its hard work but so worth it. Processing memories, doing EMDR is hard. But I wouldn’t change it for the world. I have gotten so much out of therapy.
Music, reading, hot tea, essential oils, my dog, all also help me.
So what helps you and has benefited you in your healing?
well I had a really bad result on the scales tonight. I was up 1.5 pounds. I sware, if I continue like this I’m going to scream, the same damn 2 pounds gaining and then losing it for the past 3 or 4 weeks. Ug. Sigh. Its annoying and thats putting it mildly. Anyway. My consultant gave me some tips. Basically she said I’ve reached a plateau, and I basically cant go any further unless I do something to drastically change things, basically in a nutshell I have to now work twice as hard in order to lose the weight. As if I wasnt already working hard enough! She told me that maybe I should try eating more speed, that means a ton more vegetables. So I am going to start having stir frys. I am going to eat stir fry at least 3 or 4 times a week from here on out. I am also going to completely cut out bread. I am going to stop buying breaded chicken and breaded fish and other high fat foods. I wasnt eating a lot of them but I was still eating some. I will have slimming world meals on days where I feel tired or dont want to cook because at least I know the slimming world meals are free from fat. She basically told me to bulk up my plate as well with extra vegetables, so that I get extra speed in, and eat more fruit as that is speed food too. So with that in mind I am hoping I can start losing again. I wont be going next week but the week after I am hoping for at least a 5 pound weight loss. I know if I work super hard I can lose 5 pounds in 2 weeks. I’ll also be exercising so that will also help. I was very disappointed tonight but what can you do, it happens, I cant lose all the time I guess even if I want to.
So its that time of the week again, weigh in time.
Another week, another try at being down a few pounds, even a pound will do me or half a pound. Any little bit helps. I’d be happy at this point to go in and come out with just some sort of weight loss.
I’ve had a pretty good week all things considered. So I am very hopeful.
We’ll see though. Only time will tell. Wish me luck as I step on the scales tonight!
so i did go to the gym today. it went really well there. the instructor was lovely. he showed my PA how to set up the weights machines. I did the exercises too he showed me how to use the machines and we tried out a few different weights. There are 5 machines, one for your shoulders, chest, two for your legs one for the backs and one for the fronts, and one for your arms. The one for my arms, I will be lifting 18 KG which is about 36 pounds of weight, maybe a little more. Once I do that for a while I can increase the weight, when I become fitter. It was hard but I think I can manage it. The way I’ll be doing it is to do 12 reps, 3 times. So do 12, take a break for a minute, do another 12, have another minute’s break and then do the last 12, and repeat for each of the five machines. My programme also includes cardio, 20 minutes on the treadmill and 15 on the bike. He said to try to aim to do the programme 3 times a week. I hope I can manage that. I’ll give it my best shot. I enjoyed my time there today. I was sweating when I was done. I drank a gallon of water when I finished lol. I’m going to go again tomorrow with my mom. I think I wont do the weights tomorrow though as mom doesnt know how to set them up. I can just do the cardio part of my programme instead.
I know I said I wasnt going to go volunteering today, but I gave in and I went. I am glad I did. They were down staff and were stuck so needed me so I am glad I decided to bite the bullet and go in. I got a taxi here on their account and my colleague trish is going to drop me home at around 4:45 today. Its quiet in the office today. Not too busy because there is hardly any staff in. There is only 2 of us making calls. I hope we can get them all done before the days end.
Moms making chicken curry and rice for dinner. I am looking forward to that. I love her curry. And I havent had it in a while so it will be nice to have that. I’ll be starving by the time I get to moms house. I did have a sandwich when I was out this morning. I had chicken, cheese and mayo on brown bread. It was nice. Very filling.
Well I’d better get back to my calls. Catch ya’ll later.
So had my weekly weigh in last night, was down a half a pound!
Yay its going in the right direction!
So slow though! Cant wait to start exercising to see if that speeds it up a little!
I hope it will!
Still though I am happy with my result. I am happy to be losing again after the blip of the last few weeks.
Am now down 2 stone 3 pounds! Or 31 pounds for my US readers!
Its time to go get weighed. I am nervous. I dont think I’ve done enough and I dont think I am going to lose anything. If I do I’ll be pleasantly surprised. I really dont know though I am not getting my hopes up. I was mostly good this week but there was a few times I slipped up. I sneakily weighed myself at home, but not sure my scales is right, sometimes it says I’ve lost, at other times it says I have gained. So I really dont know what to believe.
Guess I’ll find out soon enough. Fingers crossed guys!
so I did it, I joined the gym!
I talked to the manager this morning, and she was very nice. She was totally ok with me bringing someone in to help me when I use the machines. She even said the person I bring can also use the machines if they want, they’d just have to pay 5 euro per time. She did say that whoever comes in to help me will have to sign a form for insurance reasons, just so that they know whose in the building etc. Thats fine with me though.
So we went in today and I had a bit of a chat with one of the fitness instructors. He said he’d do up a programme for me, but I have to go back in next week to go through my programme with him. In the mean time he told me if I want to come in and use the gym that I should just do cardio and use the bike and the treadmill and not use the weights until he has gone through them with me.
He did let me demonstrate the weight machines today though. I’ve never tried weights before. Its all going to be new to me. I am excited to start doing weights and try them out.
So I am hoping to go a few times this coming week to the gym with my mom and just use the treadmill and the bike. I’ll ask her if she’ll go over the weekend with me. I’m sure she will if she can. The first monthly payment was taken out today and now its due on the 28th of each month. Its just remembering that I have to have money in my account for membership fees each month. the manager did say that if I ever want to cancel my membership I can, I just have to give 15 days notice to do it.
I’m very happy. They are very friendly and seem very supportive. They did weigh me today too and we are going to keep track of my weight every four weeks. The guy I chatted with said that every couple of weeks they have a chat to the member to see where they’re at and see how things are going for them. that sounds really good to me.