Fowc:so many layers

When you have did, there are so many layers at least for us there are anyway, I think its pretty similar for most did folk. We have tons of alters, because we are a polyfrggmented system. That means, there are more than a hundeed alters. The way our system works, there are sub systems, in the main system. So there is the outer layer, and then more inner layers.  then there are also some alters who have insiders of their own, so they have their own alters inside of themselves. I know its confusing, it is for us too.  We’re still getting to know Emilys insiders, she’s been working hard with Eileen in therapy, she knows them, but the rest of us we don’t know a whole lot about them. She keeps them very protected, and they in turn protect her.  Sometimes Emilys insiders will pretend to be Emily, so that we don’t know its actually one of them whose out. Did is a complicated thing.  Then in our system there are darks, and lights, the darks have been subjected to a lot of abuse, some of the lights have too, but mainly, the lights are out to help, protect the body, they are cooperative, they are helpful, they want to do good all of the time. The darks on the other hand, they are destructive, non cooperative, and they don’t want to help the system, but now some of ours are changing, they’ve been doing a lot of hard work in therapy, and I applaud that. They’ve been so courageous, discussing their memories, changing roles, getting new roles etc. Having did is definitely a roller coaster ride. I wouldn’t change it though. Not for anything. I guess I am just so used to it now.

 

FOWC with Fandango — Layer

 

 

Fowc with fandango…double

Welcome to June 2, 2019 and to Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (aka, FOWC). It’s designed to fill the void after WordPress bailed on its daily one-word prompt.

I will be posting each day’s word just after midnight Pacific Time (US).

Today’s word is “double.”

Write a post using that word. It can be prose, poetry, fiction, non-fiction. It can be any length. It can be just a picture or a drawing if you want. No
holds barred, so to speak.

Once you are done, tag your post with #FOWC and create a pingback to this post if you are on WordPress. Or you can simply include a link to your post in
the comments.

The issue with pingbacks not showing up seems to have been resolved, but you might check to confirm that your pingback is there. If not, please manually
add your link in the comments.

And be sure to read the posts of other bloggers who respond to this prompt. You will marvel at their creativity.

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When I was in the bording school, I had a friend who had glass eyes. We used to play tricks on people with them. We used to take out her eyes, and put them in places where others would find them, like at the bottom of a glass, or we’d leave them on her bedside locker for staff to find.

The staff would find them and shriek at us, you guys are in trouble! Double trouble!

It was hilarious to us. We got such a kick out of it!

There was a lot of trauma and stuff going on there, a lot of bad things happened, but that memory of us hiding her eyes and waiting to see what would happen, that’s one of the good memories I have of the place.

And she was my best friend, too. We did everything together. When I was being abused, she was the first one to know. She encouraged me to tell someone, and get help. I never did, for years, but she’d encourage me that I should tell.

Upon reading fandango’s word today, I had fond memories of our adventures together, with her eyes.

FOWC with Fandango — Double

Fowc with fandango may 30th

Welcome to May 30, 2019 and to Fandango’s One-Word Challenge (aka, FOWC). It’s designed to fill the void after WordPress bailed on its daily one-word prompt.

I will be posting each day’s word just after midnight Pacific Time (US).

Today’s word is “humdrum.”

Write a post using that word. It can be prose, poetry, fiction, non-fiction. It can be any length. It can be just a picture or a drawing if you want. No holds barred, so to speak.

Once you are done, tag your post with #FOWC and create a pingback to this post if you are on WordPress. Or you can simply include a link to your post in the comments.

The issue with pingbacks not showing up seems to have been resolved, but you might check to confirm that your pingback is there. If not, please manually add your link in the comments.

And be sure to read the posts of other bloggers who respond to this prompt. You will marvel at their creativity.

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My morning is so busy! I am caught up in the humdrum of activity that morning brings!
I’ve eaten breakfast, showered, texted my sister, called my mom, etc.
The humdrum of activity in the morning never stops!
I’ve been awake since 5 AM! That is when my morning began!
I love busy mornings! The time just seems to fly by!
Here is a little poem to talk about the humdrum of my day!

busy busy, so busy
I can feel
That humdrum
Of whirling thoughts
And activity
Taking me away
Until
I just have to
Slow down

FOWC with Fandango — Humdrum