4:45 AM

I woke up at 4 AM. I got up since I wasnt able to go back to sleep. I did go to bed pretty early though I was in bed by 10 PM. And I slept so thats good.

I am seeing my psychiatrist this morning. I am going to get to the hospital early, so that I will hopefully be finished early, since I have that awards ceremony and lunch today with my friendly call colleagues. I am being picked up to go to the ceremony and lunch at 12:30. I need to get out of my apt with dr. barry quickly, as I need to go to moms, get changed and put on make up.

I am looking forward to the awards ceremony. It should be a good day I think.

I am going to stay in mom and dads tonight. Im not sure of what time I’ll get back to their house at, and it just doesnt make sense to go home to my own house after it. I have to go to the basement club in the morning, I have a meeting to attend there about lunch hosting, so I will go directly there from mom and dads house tomorrow, and then I will go home after my meeting, since I will have Amanda my PA coming on friday morning.

I am in a good mood today. Plus, another few days of Oct. have gone by. Yay. I am so glad. I’ll just be so glad when Oct. is over.

carol anne

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Good Tuesday morning

Happy Tuesday everyone. How are you all?

I’m off to the gym in a few minutes, looking forward to my workout.

I actually slept good, didn’t think I would but I did when I finally fell asleep around 3 AM.

I slept until around seven, so got four hours of uninterrupted sleep which I badly needed.

Just waiting for my PA to come no, she’s going to the gym with me. We have two hours but I’ll probably only stay in the gym for an hour.

Weighed myself this morning and seem to be down a few pounds, I’m down around 4 lb I think in total, so very pleased, as I won’t be weighing in this week I decided to weigh myself at home on my own skills.

I think on my eating of healthy food and my good habits are paying off finally, I am delighted.

5 skills I’m good at!

I have many skills and talents. I decided to write down a few of them. Just to remind myself that I am actually good at some things!

Singing-I love to sing. And I can actually hold a tune! I was in stage school as a kid and in my teens too. I participated in a lot of shows. I enjoy music, and I take voice lessons now and absolutely love it.

Writing-I think I am an ok writer. I’ve had this blog for years. 3 years. I had another blog before this one for 3 years also. I enjoy documenting my story. It helps me feel heard.

Listening-I feel I am a good listener. I like to listen to others. I feel I do a good job when it comes to hearing what others have to say.

Conversating-I love talking. I can hold a conversation. I am a very social person. I am outgoing and not shy unless I really dont know you. If I dont know you I may be shy at first. But once I get going I can talk for ireland, they say we have the gift of the gab in ireland, I definitely do lol.

Joking around-I love to joke around. One of the thingsI absolutely love about myself is my sense of humour. People are always telling me how funny I am. I actually love jokes and joking. We all need to laugh, because, laughter makes us feel good!

So there you have it, 5 things I am good at! 5 skills I think I have.

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Daily gratitude oct. 15th

today I am grateful for a lot. In no particular order the things I feel grateful for today are:

My therapist. She continually amazes me with her dedication and support to us.

My dog. He is such a sweet boy. So warm and gives great cuddles and just loves me unconditionally.

The cooler weather. Its nice to still see sun though too. I like that its cooler now.

My heating. I am warm and cosy. I am glad I have heat in the house.

Fresh fruit. I ate some nice honey dew melon just now. It was amazing.

My sister. She drops me places when she is able to to save me money on taxi’s.

My niece and nephew. They continually make my heart swell with joy. Their laughter is infectious.

Coffee. Where would I be without it?

Books, I love them.

My uncle, who gave me some new clothes today, thanks to him for them.

There are just so many things to be grateful for on this Monday. Oh and one more thing, despite being a little off tonight, I’m grateful to be alive, and to be out of the abuse I endured for so many years.

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Its nice to see you smiling, Em

hhhihihihi everybody
I wanted to share something
this morning I went to therapy
I was the first one of us out in our session
Eileen came in to the office, and we were chatting
I asked her to guess who I am
she said she wasn’t sure
she joked that shes good but shes not that good
so I told her then it was me em
she hugged me and said
its nice to see you smiling, em
that made me smile even more
it was so lovely of her to say that to me
I haven’t been smiling a lot lately
there has be nothing good happening to smile about
not for me anyway
I thot it was so cool she noticed that
but then im not surprised
she notices everything about me
any little changes and she notices
I gess she knows me really well
butterfly hugs
loves you,
Emily age 12