so my pa came this morning. she normally does from 9 AM until 1 PM. I let her go a little early today though. She had to collect one of her kids from school. Normally her mom does it but her mom was away on holidays this week. We had a good productive few hours. We did housework, lots of it. She did vacuming, mopping, dishes, etc. She didnt change my bed this week, I didnt want it done. We had to go to a local shopping mall. I needed to go to the ATM. She took me in her car. Saved us walking there. She really isnt supposed to take me in her car, but she said it would be ok. While we were there we bought some lunch, we bought bread rolls and turkey and cheese and we came back to my house and made them up. Lunch was good. After eating we just chatted. I did have her go back to the store though for coffee as I forgot to buy it while we were there. I cant be without my coffee, and neither can Liz. Liz would kill me if there was no coffee in the house. I have an hour now before I have to leave to go volunteering. I plan on just going on the computer for a while until I have to leave. I’m feeling really good about my new PA. I really like her. I feel like we’re getting on really good. Our relationship is coming along nicely. We are clicking and geling which is nice.
There is a bad storm going on here. Lots of wind and rain. Its extremely windy outside. I had to put nitro outside in it, he didn’t like that at all.
I do have to go out in it this morning as I have to go see my OT and I also have to see dr. barry. I don’t like that I have to go out in it but I’ll do it because well these appointments are important.
I couldn’t really sleep last night, the wind was howling and keeping me up. So I am very tired this morning.
I booked my taxi for 8 AM. I have 50 minutes to go before it comes.
well sleep wouldn’t come. so what did I go and do? I started messing around with a new gadget I got today. a techy gadget its called a plex talk its a player for playing audio files and recording audio files. its one especially for the blind. I downloaded the manual and started reading through it when I couldn’t sleep. and what do you know, I figured out how to work it! so now i’m good to go! I can work it and it works fine and I like it from the little bit I played with it. and I made good use of my time too! so yay! so happy! 😀
now im just reading blogs and listening to the radio. no sign of my friend sleep yet. doubt it is coming any time soon. I feel kinda agitated. edgy. activated. so I cant settle down. I might go read now. I didn’t do it earlier.
Well I did it. I braved the store with my mom. I got what I needed and I managed, it wasn’t too bad actually. My anxiety was less by the time I actually got there. So I made it, I am very proud. It feels good to have accomplished that today. Now I have what I need grocery wise for the week…yay. I usually love spending the one to one time with mom just going there, and doing that activity. It is a little mother and daughter time that I really love a lot. We usually talk a lot and it is nice to be able to do that. Right now I am feeling ok, the anxiety is gone. I have eaten dinner we had yummy lamb chops, normally we have a big roast dinner on a sunday, but my sister went to her partners family this week so mom decided that her and my dad and me would just have lamb chops so that is what we had. They were nice too I hadn’t had them in ages. I am feeling great now and looking forward to a chill afternoon where I will do absolutely nothing. I hope your all having a great sunday. Thanks for reading.
Take me away from all this anxiety, please!
Someone rescue me! I hate this! It feels so crappy!
I feel like shit!
I am not. Ok! Not not not!
I am trying things, believe me I am. I just emailed my therapist and am hopeful she’ll respond.
Normally she doesn’t but occasionally she will if she feels its warranted.
Hoping today she does. I need to go to the store soon with my mom for a few things and my anxiety is through th eroof about it.
I don’t feel like I can deal with the crowds of people at the store!
I will go because I have to but I wish I didn’t!
So I have had a really fun time with my friend this afternoon. I spent a very nice 3 hours with her. We hung out and chatted. We basically put the world to rights. She had asked me if I wanted to have dinner with her but I had already left out chili so I didn’t take her up on that offer. I told her that maybe next time I visit her we could eat together.
Im wondering now whether I should go to bed and have an early night. Part of me says yes I should. Then part of me just wants to stay up for a while longer. Im not sure what I will do. I would like to read my book, so maybe I will just turn in for the night and do that.
Either way its been a nice day and I had a lovely time with my friend. I feel good and that’s a plus and a positive.
Well I managed to get here finally. About to start my shift soon. In like five mins.
My ride was late. My supervisor was picking me up. She got lost though and couldn’t remember where I lived.
Anyway we’re here now. We did finally make it.
We’re going to have a busy afternoon. There is hardly any staff here today. So we’re under a little pressure. But the two of us, my supervisor and myself we’ll manage.
So here I go…the next few hours will be very very busy.