Becoming a Best Friend

Its never too late to become your own best friend…

via Becoming a Best Friend


Blog awards

the lovely Kim over at this girls got curves
has nominated me for a couple of awards. The mystery blog award, and another one which the name of escapes my mind right now.
I’ve had nominations for these before and so I wont go through the whole process of rules and things and nominating blogs. But first I’d like to thank Kim, for thinking my blogs worthy of a nomination.
Second I’d like to answer her questions posted on the blog to her nominees.

  1. What do you want to be doing five years from now? Hopefully working, or more volunteering.
  2. Who do you most look up to and why (alive or dead, famous or family)? for family, my gramma and mom, for famous people, maya angelou and oprah winfrey
  3. What do you do first in the morning? Let nitro out, and get dressed.
  4. What is your favorite song? oh gosh I have so many to choose from but right now I really like perfect by ed sheeran.
  5. (Silly) What is the oldest thing in your fridge? Some plumbs lol they need to go they’re soft and unedible and are about 3 weeks old. 😛 gross, I know.

and her second list of questions for her nominees was…

  1. What is your favorite song? ok this time i’ll pick pinks song beautiful trauma.
  2. What state or country are you from and what are you known for there? I am from ireland. We are know for drinking alcohol lol!
  3. If you knew there was only a year left of time on earth, do you think you would be a better or worse person and why?hmm thats a tough one and I am not sure. I suppose I’d try to be a better person.
  4. What would you do if you woke up 5 years younger? lol I wake up five years younger sometimes already, when I switch between insiders!
  5. 5 years older? Say, man, I’m getting old!
  6. Suddenly there are no cell phones. Can you survive? Nooo, I need my phone. I am lost without it.
  7. Sun or Moon? Sun
  8. Why do you blog? it helps me purge my feelings, release them, and also to raise awareness of dissociative disorders and mental illness in general.
  9. Favorite food? chinese, mexican, italian
  10. Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi all the way 😛
  11. Post your favorite post.

Hmmm ok I am too lazy to go through to my blog and find a link, and anyway there is more than one I liked lately.

Let it bleed. Why?

why, why oh why
did I not die?
its a question
I ask myself
every day
over and over I ask
why? why?
why did I survive?
was it luck
Or because someone gave a fuck
Not sure
Always feeling so insecure
why? oh why?
am I alive
So I can thrive?
who knows
because I sure don’t
I am stumped
why? oh why?


Guess what? We did it!

I made it! i did it thanks to you lovely readers!
I reached my highest number of views this week!
so thrilled! And I even went over by 60 views! wowsers!
Thanks everyone for helping me reach a goal! Yalls are the best and the bomb!
carol anne



my mind likes to meander, jump from one thought to the next. one minute i am thinking about therapy tomorrow. the next I am thinking about sleep, wondering will I get any tonight? thinking, probably not, story of my life. Thoughts meander slowly at first, then begin to quicken, pick up pace. I walk about in a daze, dissociated, irritated, agitated, anxious, mood unstable, after a few good days of stability. I wonder, does anyone care about this stuff i write? Am I even making sense? See? I told you my thoughts ramble and meander, I have little control over them. I try, but cant seem to switch off my mind. Its constantly buzzing and whirring. Who knows? Maybe some day I’ll succeed in switching it off or temporarily jolting it so that I am not feeling like my thoughts are spinning out of control.


nearly there…

13 views to go to beat my record, come on, come on come on!
lets do this!
you guys are awesome :O the best 😛
carol nane


blog Views!

I need 67 more views to make it past my record for number of views on my blog in a day!
come on you guys, help me out! 😛
Hit me up, lol!
carol anne