I could have been beautiful
but you spattered me with blood
I might have been graceful
but you knocked me into the mud
I could have been courageous
but you crumpled me into a ball
I might have been brave
but you made me feel so small
I could have been intelligent
but you taught me not to try
I might have been brilliant
but you told me the truth is a lie
I could have been trusting
but your promises lay broken
I might have been confiding
but you taught me to leave everything unspoken
I could have been independent
but you left so many needs unfilled
I might have been self-reliant
but you made it so I couldn’t rebuild
I could have been whole
but you tore me all apart
I might have been so much more
but you destroyed my growing heart
Jessa
c2006