Blog share. On the borderline, lydias blog

Lydia is a 21 year old from the UK, blogging about her life with bpd, and fibromyalgia.
Check out her blog, its brand new and I would encourage you all to give her a shout out and a follow!


When we share…

When we share laughter,
There’s twice the fun;
When we share success,
We surpass what we’ve done.
When we share problems,
There’s half the pain;
When we share tears,
A rainbow follows rain.
When we share dreams,
They become more real;
When we share secrets,
It’s our hearts we reveal.
If we share a smile,
Then our love shows;
If we share a hug,
Then our love grows.
If we share with someone
On whom we depend,
That person becomes
Family or friend.
And what draws us closer
And makes us all care,
Is not what we have,
But the things that we share.


Health update

My kidney infection is a lot better this morning. I’ve taken 3 of the antibiotics now. I feel much, much better.

I went to bed last night at 8 pm. And I stayed in bed until 9 AM today. I slept too, only waking up once to get a drink and use the bathroom.

The pain in the front of my stomach is completely gone now, I can press on my stomach and it doesnt hurt me. I’m just so happy I went yesterday and got it checked out.

If I would have left it until Monday I’d have been extremely sick over the weekend.

Heading out today with mom to a lake, for a picnic and to go walking. It should be a nice day.
carol anne

Stomach pain

for the past 2 days i’ve had a very sore stomach.

its like muscle pain, but I am not sure that is what it is. I’m pretty worried about it.

My anxiety is very high. I’ll give it a couple more days, if it doesnt go away I’ll see my gp.

If I press on the front of my stomach, above my belly button, it hurts. If I breathe in deeply it hurts. If I move suddenly, it hurts.

Its worrying. I’m trying not to think too much about it. It might be that I pulled a muscle getting in or out of bed. Who knows.

We’ll just see how it goes I guess.
carol anne

Sore muscles

good morning everyone,
I hope that your all doing good on this friday.
as for me, I have very sore muscles. I think I’ve been doing too much exercise. I walked to the vets on wednesday, I was carrying my backpack on my back, then yesterday the muscles at the top of my but where it meets my lower back were killing me. I could barely walk without them hurting. I think I overdid it!
They are still hurting today but its less sore. I want them to get better so that when I go on holiday next week I can walk a lot! I dont know why they acted up now, because well, I am used to walking, its not like I am not.
Anyone got any ideas for me?
Anyway. I’m just taking it easy today. I dont have any plans. I made myself some coffee and I am going to read for a while. My mom is going to come over later on this afternoon to pick up my cheque and change it for me in the credit union.
Then this evening my pa will come over and I will have her help me clean the house. Nitro is shedding like crazy again so it needs a good cleaning. I’ll also have her help me cook dinner. I made a nice healthy dinner today of spaghetti bolognes.
carol anne


pain swirls
around me like a whirlwind
i sit and wait
wait for it to end
but it doesnt
it continues to make me crazy
i shake uncontrollably
i sit and whimper
that feeling of grief
of all that i’ve lost
it creeps up on me
before i can even see
or notice
pain, grief
its all the same
and i think
to myself
how i’m to blame