Book review:A dark secret, by Casey Watson

Summary

Just when Casey thinks her foster care duties are done, she’s asked to look after Sam, a troubled nine-year-old with a violent streak who drove his previous guardians to release him of their care. It soon unfolds, however, that this is no simple case.

Determined to get to the root of Sam’s behaviour, Casey is committed to uncover his mysterious past only to find out something far darker than she ever imagined….

Having recently said good-bye to their last foster child, Miller, the Watson family are taking a bit of a break. But it’s while Casey is having fun catching up with her friends that she receives a call from her new link worker. Social services are desperately trying to find a settled home for nine-year-old Sam, who has autism and some serious behavioural problems.

Removed from his mother less than a week ago, Sam has been staying with respite carers. But with two young children of their own, they now find themselves unable to hold on to the little boy as he is bullying them relentlessly. It’s not an isolated situation, either. Apparently Sam’s own siblings begged not to be placed with their older brother – they were both adamant that they were too afraid of him.

The Watsons agree to accommodate Sam, who, despite his tiny stature, turns out to be quite the whirlwind – destroying anything and everything in his path. In addition to the outward behaviours, it quickly becomes evident that there is a much darker past that has blighted the boy’s life. As Casey tries to get to the bottom of it, she discovers there are no files on Sam, only the testament of his previous neighbour. Thankfully, Mrs Gallagher is only too happy to help. And to talk. But it soon transpires that there is a great deal more to Sam’s secret history….

*****
My review…

This was a great read. I got it from audible. Its also available in paperback and on kindle. I didn’t like the reader of the book, but I did enjoy the book.

It was a page turner. The story moved along at a nice pace. It kept me interested all the way through.

While I prefer other foster care authors, I did like this story. I just don’t like caseys writing style all that much, but sams story was good, and had a happy ending which was nice to see.

I would recommend this book if you like fostering memoirs or stories about children who’ve overcome the odds.

You wont be disappointed. Its definitely worth a read.

Something that irritates me

So I read audiobooks a lot. When I read audio books, if the reader is bad, then I cant get into the book. Does anyone else read audiobooks? Do you find if you have a reader whose annoying, that you just dont want to finish the book?
Right now I am reading a dark secret, which is Casey watsons newest book, she’s a foster parent who writes about her foster kids. The reader of her books is Kate Locke, and she’s awful. She’s screechy, does terrible voices for the characters, is very slow at reading, and I just cant stand her.
It makes it so hard to get through the book. I started it a week ago, and normally I’d fly through these sort of books, but I am really really struggling to read it. I am only on chapter 8. I will probably finish it, but it might take me a while to do it.

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Emily…therapy with Eileen

Hihihiii everyone

Its me Em. I’m so glad Eileens home. It was so good to see her today. I was so looking forward to my session with her.

But when I got there, it was hard. At the start I couldnt get my words together. I could barely talk.

We tried a few different things. NOthing was helping. I was anxious and dissociative. I cried a lot.

It didnt help that at the start of our session she told me she would be going away again at the start of July for a week. She is going to a conference. When she told me that I freaked out. So did everyone else. All of us kids were freaking out.

She told me it would be ok, that we’d work something out. I couldnt hear her though. All I could think is, she’s leaving again. And how much I would miss her, and also how hard it had been this past week without her, and I didnt want that again.

She said she’d give us another therapy slot, that even though she’d be away on our usual day that we have therapy, that she’d fit us in later in the week, she kept reassuring us that its only a temporary thing, that she’s here for us and not going anywhere.

Eventually we listened to her, and felt relief, and after sobbing some more on her, we calmed a little. But only for a few minutes. Then the anxiety ramped up again. So she had us walk around the room with her, touching everything, and feeling our body, as we walked and talked things got a little easier.

Then we sat down, and I was able to tell her that two of my insiders were feeling upset. One was feeling like she was falling apart, she’s 8, her name is april. The other, who is 11, was feeling as though she was going to go through the window. You see we’d been at the window, resting our elbows on it, and feeling the sun on our face. She started remembering times in the past when she’d been hurt, and near a window, and feeling as though she was going to be pushed out of it.

Eileen asked us if it would be ok if she held us, of course I agreed, because that is so grounding, and sootheing, and I love it when she holds me. So she came behind me, and placed both of her hands on my shoulders, and she said if I wanted to that I can fall backwards into her arms, and she’d catch me.

We stayed like that for a long time. It felt so comforting. Then when we sat down she put a soft blanket around me, and tucked it around my legs, and the pressure of it was also really grounding, plus it was so soft, it felt so furry and I loved it. She always has it in her office, but I’d forgotten it was there. She keeps it especially for us.

By the time we started to really talk, it was almost time to end the session. I said it felt like we hadnt really done any work, and she said that we had, that this type of work was even more important than the talking, and so she told me that I wasnt to worry, because we are working so hard, and she told me to go home and rest, but I couldnt, we had to go out again in the afternoon.

But the session was really great. And I feel secure now that she’s home again. My safe person is back. I am very happy about it.

Butterfly hugs,
Love
emily
XXX

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Denial

sitting on her bed
an intense pain in her heart
razor in hand
she thinks
should I?
Thoughts fill her mind
Did I?
When?
How?
Where? Did she care?
The denial was strong
He hadn’t sexually abused her had he?
But the evidence couldn’t be disputed
Indeed he had
And now, she sat
A razor blade in her hand
Ready to slice her skin
As the pain…
The pain overwhelmed her
She looked out the window
As thoughts continued to race around her head
Would she be better off dead?
Would anyone care?
Would it be fair to her family?
To put them through this pain?
But she was in pain too
And the man who caused her so much pain
In her childhood
He was free
She wished the denial wasn’t so strong
Denial is a scary thing
You really start believing it if your not careful

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Book review: Daddys little soldier, by maggie hartley

Can foster carer Maggie Hartley reunite a vulnerable little boy grieving for his mummy with his ex-military father?

This is an amazing read. I would highly recommend it.

The story has many twists and turns, ups and downs, highs and lows.

I give it a 5 star rating!

Its a fantastic book and you wont be disappointed!

Maggie Hartley has done it once again! She takes the reader into her world, the world of being a foster parent to a traumatised child.

I enjoyed this book very much!

If you want to read it its available either as an Ebook, or an audio book. Both available on amazon and audible.

Also in all good book shops, as a paperback.

Once you start reading, you’ll be hooked, and unable to put it down!

I’M A WARRIOR

THIS IS MY CURRENT FAVOURITE SONG! I HOPE SOME OF YOU CAN RELATE TO IT AS MUCH AS I DO. TONIGHT, IM SITTING HERE, IN TEARS, LISTENING TO IT OVER AND OVER, A DEEP SADNESS JUST CAME OVER ME ALL OF A SUDDEN, I SENT THIS TO EILEEN TOO, I THINK SHE’LL APPRECIATE IT AND WHY I CAN RELATE TO IT SO MUCH.

SOMETIMES ITS HARD BEING A SURVIVOR, SO HARD..
LIZ

We are all a little broken

The idea behind a kaleidoscope is that it’s a structure that’s filled with broken bits and pieces, and somehow if you can look through them, you still see something beautiful. And I feel like we are all that way a little bit.
Sara Bareilles

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