I just finished this book. I thought it was a very good book, very sad though, and very graphic in places, so if your triggered by talk of abuse or details about abuse and acts of violence, then this book might not be for you.
Cassie grew up in ireland. She survived physical, sexual and emotional abuse at the hands of her stepdad and her mother. At just 16 she was sold into marriage by them.
I wont spoil the rest of the book, but it was a page turner, thats for sure.
the book is available on kindle, on audible, and in paperback.
Book description is below.
Author: Cassie Moore
Title: Did you hear me crying?
In this shocking memoir, Cassie Moore gives a very open and honest description of how she suffered and survived a lifetime of abuse. She describes the sexual, physical and emotional abuse she suffered at the hands of her stepfather and mother, who then sold her into marriage at the age of 16; the heartbreak she suffered when she naively left her 22 month old baby behind when she fled to London with the man she fell in love with, only to be abused by him for a further 23 years; the self-loathing, depression and despair she felt during those lonely years; and the enormous sacrifices she had to make to save herself and start a new life.
What was the last book you read?
I’m currently reading did you hear me crying by cassie moore. Its a true memoir about an irish child abuse survivor. Its good, I am liking it, I’m not all the way through it yet though.
ok guys. i am going to write about my disfunctional family, and my childhood, and my experiences of neglect and abuse in my family growing up, that is, before I reached age 5 and before i ever got to the bording school.
I’ve never discussed these on here before. the posts will all be passworded.
if you’d like to read then please let me know below. and I will email the password to you.
this is not a private blog, but it means that these posts will have a password that you will need to enter to read the content of them.
I appreciate anyone who would like to read them! it means a lot to me that your wanting to follow my journey.
just be kind, when commenting, thats all I do need to say.
man its hot outside today!
i woke up early. very very early. like 5 AM early.
i only went to bed at 1, was reading for a while, and didnt actually settle down to sleep until around 2;:30.
my new book is so good. its called did you hear me crying and is by cassie moore. its actually about a girl who lived in ireland growing up. i didnt know that when i bought it. its really good. she was abused all through her childhood by her step dad. so far i like what i’ve read of it.
i cant wait until later today to go outside and sit in the sun and read my book. if its hot now, and it is, i can imagine how hot it will be by noon. I’ll really be roasting!
What are your plans for saturday? Anything special? 😀
I am waiting with anticipation for this day to be over. I’m really really upset and anxious right now. And very very triggered by this day.
I just want it to end. Please let it end soon. Just over 2 hours to go until its midnight here. God the time is going so slowly.
As darkness falls I get more and more upset. My nightmare begins. I start to remember. I start to remember every bad thing that happened to me in childhood. The rituals. The cult. The meetings they’d take me to. The abuse.
God, oh god, it feels unbearable, remembering.
So I go and make myself a cup of tea. maybe the tea will soothe me. I can hope. I pat nitro. His fur soft underneath my shaking hand. Oh how I love him. He always knows what to do to give me a little encouragement.
I sit and I wait and I drink my tea. And I hope, and look to tomorrow with anticipation that it will be a better day.
Anticipation-word of the day June 19th
I have reservations about therapy this week. I feel it will be a hard session. I’m not prepared.
I try to prepare myself for what may come up. Its been so hard lately.
So many new insiders are coming forward, insiders that have been further back and inside for years.
that’s ok, its good, but its hard.
there is a lot of internal chaos. the system is struggling to stay afloat.
we struggle a lot, but its much harder to hide it now. and I do have to hide it from some people. I cant act unstable with some family members, or friends.
i’m giving it over to Eileen. she will know how to help. I am trusting her to know how fast to go. I am trusting her with all this.
she has proven over and over that she is experienced and knows what to do how to guide us how to help us.
so I know I need to let her do her job, doesn’t stop me from worrying and becoming anxious though.
anxietys a killer. I feel it every single day. I hate having so much anxiety. I feel I am unable to cope with the level of anxiety I have.
just thinking about all this right now. but I need to sleep or try to. so I will get off line and shut down my pc for the night.
The Friday Reminder and Prompt for #SoCS June 16/18
LIZ HERE. FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE NEW TO OUR BLOG, OR NEW TO KNOWING SOMEONE WITH DID, I WILL EXPLAIN SOMETHING HERE ABOUT US, WE ARE A SRA SURVIVOR, SRA STANDS FOR SATANIC RITUALISTIC ABUSE.
WE WENT THROUGH SRA FOR 12 YEARS. FROM THE TIME WE WERE 5 YEARS OLD UNTIL WE WERE 17.
WE WERE PART OF A CULT, AND IT WAS EXTREMELY BRUTAL AND TRAUMATISING.
SO ON MAY 1ST, ITS BELTANE. A SRA HOLIDAY. AND WE ARE EXTREMELY SCARED OF ALL SRA HOLIDAYS. TRIGGERED BY THEM TOO.
I’VE NOTICED I HAVE BEEN GETTING A TON OF MEMORIES BACK LATELY ABOUT THE SRA. MEMORIES I DIDNT EVEN KNOW ABOUT. MEMORIES I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO PROCESS UNSUCCESSFULLY.
SO TOMORROW WHEN I GO TO THERAPY I AM GOING TO TALK TO EILEEN ABOUT THEM. MAYBE NOT PROCESS ANY BECAUSE WE ARENT DOING ANY PROCESSING RIGHT NOW, BUT EVEN TO JUST SIMPLY TALK ABOUT THE SRA TRIGGERS WILL BE GOOD I THINK.
I THINK I WILL BENEFIT FROM DOING THAT.
I’M FED UP OF NIGHTS OF NO SLEEP, FLASHBACKS, MEMORIES, AND BEING TRIGGERED.
ITS NO FUN AND REALLY JUST FUCKING SUCKS.