So today while cleaning out a drawer I found a folder. In it I found letters that my gramma wrote to me when I was 9 years old. So they are 30 years old. I found 3 letters. I got mom to read them to me. It was bittersweet. I was moved to tears by what she said in them. She said she wished she could come to my school to visit me, but that she felt too unwell to make the long journey there. But she hoped some day she’d be able to come. She never did. She suffered from severe and prolonged depression all of her life. She would spend weeks and months in bed. I always remember that about her I remember going to visit her at weekends and sitting with her and we’d watch old movies and chat. I miss her so much. She died when I was 14, she died from breast cancer that spread all over her body. Finding those letters today brought back a lot to me. In them she was telling me about family, and in each of them she said she enclosed 2 pounds, that was a lot of money back in 1989, I remember having money to go to the store and buy candy, and all of my friends in school were jealous of me. I do remember her also writing to me when I was in school and staff reading out the letters to me. I’m so glad I kept them. Having them is so important to me. It helps me feel connected and close to my gramma, who I loved dearly.
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That was a bittersweet experience I suspect. My grandma on my fathers side passed away 5 years ago and I miss her so much too. I never knew my mums mum because she passed away when I was 3 months old.
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That gramma was my mums mum. My dads mum committed suicide when I was five. xx
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Blimey, you do have quite a burden of tragic experiences to carry too. Sending you a hug! 😚
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Thanks! I know, I still remember that. The aftermath I mean. It stayed with me. xo
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I bet it did. Never had to deal with that but most of my family passed away of cancer which you know because of your gramma is bad enough. XXX will light a candle for all of you! X
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Thanks! I would like that. xoxo ❤
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It’s on now 😚🕯
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Thanks! I love candles. I cant light them at home here though as Its a little dangerous when I cant see them. xo
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Good morning. I was wondering about that. Hope you are having a good new week!
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I am, thanks! I got up early, at 4 AM! Have showered now and just having a cuppa, going to therapy at 9:30 and then later on have to get my flu shot. xo
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You are busy today. I was up at 5 and we were at the beach at half six. It was really cold. Wind from up North. Brrrr.
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Oh, that sounds cool, I don’t think I’d like to go to the beach on a day like today it’s only about 6° here
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I do not blame you. It was freezing but the sky was so cool. The sun just came up but was behind a cloud and it lit the top of the cloud up. That looked great! Was worth putting up with the cold!
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Oh wow! How awesome! I bet it looked amazing!
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It did 😚
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Im back from therapy now. Just had lunch. Now relaxing for half an hour before my sis picks me up and takes me to my gp for the flu in jection. xo
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Good luck with that. I just had lunch and then write a couple of posts. Dog might want another walk (or me because of that cookie for lunch 😁) and then cooking and some housework maybe 😚🙋
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Yay! Yummy cookies. I didnt have any so am jealous ha ha! 😀
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You are a good girl and I am not 😁🐝
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tehee! We’ll see how long that lasts! Lol 😀
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You be strong and I eat the cookies 😉 muahahahahaaaaa x
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Well I’m all done now injection all done and over with thank God 🙂
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Did you get your house work and cooking done? And all of your blog post written 💟
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I wanted to do Share your world too but didn’t manage. Will do that tomorrow. Housework and cooking is sorted now. Was cheese and potato pie and salad. That wasn’t too much work and tasted nice. Afterwards sorted my email. I deleted most newsletters I had signed up for and still get a ton 😊 and you. Are you having a nice evening?
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I went to bed early. I was exhausted after therapy. xo
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aww that’s lovely that you still have the letters and such nice memories of your Grandma before she passed away even though she wasn’t a well lady. I never had that sort of connection with any of my grandparents unfortunately. xox
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Sorry to hear that Hun, I think grandparents are so important, I’m glad I had that special connection with her xox
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well my mum’s mum died the year before I was born, my dad’s dad when I was 4 so didn’t get to know either of them. My dad’s mum was a very cold woman, though she moved locally to us and we saw her regularly(died when I was 11)…unfortunately my favourite, my grumpa (mum’s dad) lived 400miles away in Scotland so we only saw him a few times a year, I have lovely memories of him but he died when I was 12. Family is a weird concept for me lol but I do love hearing about other people’s close connections with theirs 🙂 xox
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Oh so sad for you. I am glad you like hearing about the close connection I had with my gramma though. Thats so lovely of you xox
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Oh, how nice you kept them and found them now, although it had to be a bit hard for you too. I’m glad you have good memories of her and that you had such a strong relationship.
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Yes I am glad about that too! I am happy I can remember her. My sister cant, but she was only 5 when she died. xo
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Grandma’s are precious! So glad you have those letters and sweet memories .
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Yes it’s great I’m so happy I have them and so happy I have good memories to cherish 😍💕😘
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