other weekend thoughts

so my mood is good since i got out of the hospital. yesterday i went to the basement club in the morning. i hadnt slept at all so wasnt sure whether i should attempt to go out, but i decided that i needed to not isolate and so i went for about 4 hours. i had an appointment in the afternoon so decided i’d just go for the morning. our buses are on strike around the country right now, so it was pretty quiet in there. lots of people who use the basement club also use the bus to get there. there were a few of us in there though. i treated the kids to a donut from the donut shop across the street. they wanted a peanut butter and chocolate one which was so so messy but oh so good. came home around 1 pm, got stuck in crazy traffic on the way home so was stuck in the car for half an hour. had an appointment to meet the pa who is covering next week for kristen at 2. however she didnt get to me until 2:30 because she too was stuck in traffic. the co-ordinator of the irish wheelchair association came with her to introduce her to me. the meeting went well. she seems nice. i basically went over what i would need her to do for me and what times i would need her to cover and on what days. she seems really friendly and seems like she will have good work ethic which is good. we shall see i guess when tuesday comes if she does or not. once they left i had left over pizza for dinner and then i crashed. slept for most of the rest of friday evening. i suppose thats what a run of no sleep for days on end will do to you. i never sleep good when i am in hospital and besides the one or two nights where i did get good sleep while i was in there i did not sleep well the rest of the time. anyway woke up in the middle of the night to a text from my friend rose. she said she was struggling to sleep, her thoughts were racing, and she felt lonely, and asked me to ring her if i got the text. so i did, and we talked for about 2 hours. then i went back to sleep for another couple hours, and woke up to my mom calling me to tell me we would be going to the beach later so to get ready and get a taxi to their house. the weekend team were meant to call me but they never did. i waited the whole day and no call came. i dont know why. i could have called them but i didnt bother. i will talk to dr. Barry on wednesday and see what went wrong. my guess is that obviously someone forgot to do up the referral form and it never got faxed in. so yeah. i suppose i’ll have to manage until wednesday with the help of my other supports. i think i can do that. i was a little bit disappointed that they never called but not overly so. its the second time this has happened to me though. dr. barry will probably be very apologetic when i tell her what happened. its not her fault, i’m sure she gave the job of the referral to one of her juniors and they forgot. a simple mistake. i guess its just a good thing i have other supports to fall back on. if i was only depending on them as my only avenue of support i’d be screwed.

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Author: Carol anne

I am in my mid 40's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland. View all posts by Carol anne