TALKING IN THERAPY ABOUT TIME LOSS

THERAPY TODAY WAS HARD. WE WERE TALKING A LOT ABOUT TIME LOSS And US LOSING TIME.
WE SEEM TO BE LOSING QUITE A LOT OF TIME. THIS IS BECAUSE SOME INSIDERS WHO HAVENT BEEN OUT IN YEARS ARE NOW STARTING TO COME OUT MORE.
THEN WHEN THAT HAPPENS WE HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE DOING AND IT IS VERY DISCONCERTING.
EILEEN TALKED TO A FEW OF THEM ABOUT THE REASONS WHY THEY ARE STARTING TO COME OUT NOW.
IT EMERGED THAT SOME OF THEM ARE BEING TRIGGERED OUT AND IN MAY WERE TRIGGERED BY CONTACT FROM A PAST ABUSER. BUT ITS NOT ALL ABOUT CONTACT FROM PAST ABUSERS. WHILE THAT WAS WHAT STARTED IT IT WOULD SEEM THAT THE FACT THAT WE’RE NOW LOOKING MORE INDEPTHLY AT THINGS IN THERAPY IS SCARING SOME OF THEM.
THEY ARE AFRAID OF THERAPY. AFRAID OF TRUSTING EILEEN. AFRAID TO BUILD UP A BOND WITH HER. AFRAID TO TALK ABOUT THEIR PAST. AFRAID OF WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO THEM IF THEY DO.
THANK GOD EILEEN WAS ABLE TO REASSURE THEM. SHE DID A TERRIFIC JOB OF DOING THAT. I DONT KNOW WHERE WE’D BE WITHOUT HER HELP.
SHE ASKED ME TO HELP THEM BY SHOWING THEM OUR LIFE NOW, SHOWING THEM THINGS THAT WE ARE DOING IN THE PRESENT, AND HELPING THEM TO SEE THAT WE ARE FREE, AND THIS IS 2018. SO I SAID I WOULD.
AND I HAVE BEEN DOING IT. WE’RE GOING TO WORK OVER THE NEXT FEW WEEKS WITH SOME OF THESE TRIGGERED INSIDERS.
EILEEN SAID WE NEED TO HELP THEM TO SEE THAT WE ARE SAFE NOW. THAT THEY DONT NEED TO COME OUT UNAWARES TO EVERYONE ELSE AND DO THINGS WHILE OUT THAT MIGHT PUT US IN DANGER.
SHE TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO THEM THAT THE REALITY IS THAT WE ARE SHARING A BODY, AND IF SOMETHING HAPPENS TO US WHEN ONE OF THEM IS OUT AND DOING DANGEROUS THINGS, THEN WE ALL COULD END UP DEAD. THAT SHOCKED THEM. I DONT THINK THEY WERE EXPECTING THAT BIT OF INFO. BUT ITS GOOD SHE TOLD THEM I THINK.
IT WAS A GOOD SESSION TODAY BUT VERY HARD. SOME OF THE INSIDERS WHO TALKED TO HER MIGHT WRITE LATER ABOUT IT. THEY JUST ARE NOT SURE RIGHT NOW, THEY DONT KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE AND ARE QUITE TRIGGERED AND SCARED TO OPEN UP TO ANYONE.
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Author: Carol anne

I am in my mid 40's. I'm blind and I have dissociative identity disorder, I also have complex PTSD. I blog about my life with these disorders. I live in Ireland. View all posts by Carol anne