Why?

Today I ask why

Why that man picked me

Yes Im asking why

Why could he not see

The pain and the suffering

That he would cause for me

Its just one thing after another

Its this nasty mind of mine

Memory after memory

You were way out of line

Why sir did you break me

For your own delight

Made me a target for others

Whos minds were not right

Wrong enough to hurt me

Until I couldnt take much more

Made myself a family

And to others shut the door

I have my help my system

Always there to say

Come on we can do It

Several times a day

You dont know how you scared me

Each time you came near

Even hurt me now

Enough to shed a tear

Today I really hate you

For that I dont ask why

I know its cause your sick inside

And you fucked a child dry

I cried til i could cry no more

After what you did

I cried because you made me hurt

In your perverse desperate bid

Your bid to fulfill your fantasy

Without any thought

No thought for my feelings

And from that you taught

Taught me to be tough

Not take any shit

Say no to perverts

Sick and twisted dicks

I hope you die you bastard

And I hope it hurts like fuck

Oh and I just want you to know

That what you did fucking sucks.

FUCK YOU!!!

LIZ

37 responses to “Why?”

  1. Donnalee Avatar

    I’m sorry Liz and all of you.

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    1. manyofus1980 Avatar

      THANKS DONNALEE. YOUR KIND AND SO CARING. IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ALL OF US. XO

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      1. Donnalee Avatar

        I really like you all and wish you the best.

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      2. manyofus1980 Avatar

        and we love you too donnalee! ❤ xo

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      3. Donnalee Avatar

        yay how nice!

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      4. manyofus1980 Avatar

        ❤ xo hope you've had a fantastic day? x

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      5. Donnalee Avatar

        So far so good–no one else here, so that is restful. I hope you have had too.

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      6. manyofus1980 Avatar

        nope. not in a while maybe a few days. not looking likely tonight either. not even tired as I write this. x

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      7. Donnalee Avatar

        Yuck. It is the dark of the moon and an eclipse, so maybe it is too stimulating for some. I haven’t tried to go to bed yet,s ince it maybe 6:30 pm herre now. I do hope you get good sleep or at least good rest–

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      8. manyofus1980 Avatar

        oh i never knew it was an eclipse tonight? thats probably why then. we have ra in our background so…yeah. xo

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      9. Donnalee Avatar

        It seems like these last few years there are so many eclipses and blue moons and all–it does seem to affect me anyhow.

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      10. manyofus1980 Avatar

        I know it seems they are just about every sencond or third week now! xx

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      11. Donnalee Avatar

        I think the eclipses do come two weeks apart, full and dark of moon, and then at other times of year. It’s those interesting times we live in–

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      12. manyofus1980 Avatar

        Yup. and because I am a ritual abuse survivor, all of those things trigger us, its to do with how the abusers abused us and made us think they were bad!

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      13. Donnalee Avatar

        Oh no–I am so sorry about that. Please tell me any triggers I should avoid, on a private email if you want. I did watch carol anne’s video re: halloween so I know that brief background, but i don’t know every bit by any means. I did read a very sad and interesting book by another person with did who was a survivor of ritual abuse, and that person suffered terribly too.

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      14. manyofus1980 Avatar

        i will let you know. thanks for asking. xo

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      15. Donnalee Avatar

        I find that times like full moons and eclipses and dark of moon can be really helpful to me, since the energy feels different. I have not had ritual abuse so I do not have any prograaming about them, so I just feel what feels like energetically. Sometimes it feels really oppressive to me, or sometimes I get great insights. This is considered to be the start of the Tibetan new year, tommorrw, and that for the next two weeks all that we do gets 10 million times the karma of usual. They believe we get karma for what we do, just that doing good things gets good karma and doing bad things makes bad, so for the next two weeks I will do as much good as I can and hope it helps everything. I also will do one sit-up and hope it counts for 10 million!

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      16. manyofus1980 Avatar

        lol! and I’ll do no sit ups! because I’m out of shape! but I’m walking every day now! xo

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      17. Donnalee Avatar

        Are your shins feeling okay with the walking?

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      18. manyofus1980 Avatar

        no not really, i have shin splints, but i am pushing on through, because I know they’ll get better in acouple days!

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      19. Donnalee Avatar

        Okay. I’m the ones where they ripped right off the bone/ligaments/whatever in both legs, so I advise watching it…just sayin. I can tell you yucky stories about it but won’t right now!

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      20. manyofus1980 Avatar

        Oh! Ouch! I’ll be careful then! ❤

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      21. Donnalee Avatar

        It was bad, lasted for decades on and off, still messed up. Good to avoid it for sure.

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      22. manyofus1980 Avatar

        Oooo nooo! not good! xo

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      23. Donnalee Avatar

        No. It put me oncrutches, and then I had to run through a dorm that was on fire saving people and threw aside the crutches and the legs never got better but I got everyone out of the dorm before having a pleasant little psychotic break outside in the rain on someone steps with their dog.

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      24. manyofus1980 Avatar

        Oh my! you’ve had some trying times! Glad you got everyone out!

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      25. Donnalee Avatar

        They had sabotaged the fire alram and stolen the fire extinguisher. Two weeks before finals in my first semester and we were all homeless. Not the best way to start a university career!

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      26. manyofus1980 Avatar

        no, lol. indeed it wasnt. silly students, they shouldnt have been so stupid. xo

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      27. Donnalee Avatar

        There was some sabotage going on, and they never figured out who did it. It was too bad and great that no one got hurt.

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      28. manyofus1980 Avatar

        Yeah. no kidding. it was a miracle no one got hurt. x

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      29. Donnalee Avatar

        My boyfriend at the time tried to go back into the burning building to find me, not knowing I got out and was over on the steps with someone’s dog in the rain at about sunrise, actually. They had to hold him back. Terrible situation.

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    1. manyofus1980 Avatar

      Thanks for linking to my post xxxx

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  3. angellic23 Avatar

    Wow!!! This was good. Wish I could write like that!!! Amilia

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    1. manyofus1980 Avatar

      Thanks, Emilia, Thanks for the support. liz

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  4. socialworkerangela Avatar
    socialworkerangela

    Moving words. I ask why a lot too

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    1. manyofus1980 Avatar

      Its hard not to isnt it? ❤

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