A long night
Filled with horrific dreams
Terror knows no bounds
A long night
Filled with pain
The awful pain
Of horrific night terrors
A long night
Where sleep doesn’t come
And being awake
Fearful, crying
Feels horrendous
A long night
Long, long night
Where all I want
Is some normality?
But…
Normality?
Whats that?
I guess I wont ever know

19 responses to “To be normal, what is that?”

  1. paeansunplugged Avatar

    Aww! This is touching, Carol. Hugs, dear!

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      Thank you, big hugs to you as well 🙂💖

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      1. Carol Anne Avatar

        Punam, thank you! ❤

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  2. Paula Light Avatar
    Paula Light

    ❤️ wishing you peace

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      Thanks Paula 💝

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  3. Evolution of Self Avatar
    Evolution of Self

    Welcome to sadistic constant Roller Coaster

    In 3 days I had 6 hrs sleep this ride never fucking ends and normal are you kidding.

    I am the furthest thing from normal I also careless how others appeal to me I will never lay down or compromised my testament to blend in with gutless cowards sheep serve no purpose except on the menu.

    Period!!!!

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      Wow and here I was thinking my sleep was bad! Six hours? Wow!

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      1. Evolution of Self Avatar
        Evolution of Self

        Yes been very surreal very intense and violent

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  4. BeckiesMentalMess.wordpress.com Avatar

    Wonderful writing and raw emotion fromthis one. Great job!

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      Thank you Becky! I hope your ok, we havent heard much from you lately!

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      1. BeckiesMentalMess.wordpress.com Avatar

        I’ve just been very busy and overtired. But, I’m still here. xoxo!

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      2. Carol Anne Avatar

        Yes I know the feeling, I slept a lot this weekend too. Was very tired slept all night Saturday night and a lot of yesterday as well 😄

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      3. BeckiesMentalMess.wordpress.com Avatar

        That’s a good thing, that you’ve been finally sleeping.
        I just kept pushing myself all weekend long, and I’m paying for it now. 😖

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      4. Carol Anne Avatar

        Then you should take a nap, and will definitely do you the power of good 😁💜

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  5. fakeflamenco Avatar

    wishing you a peaceful night tonight, hugs R

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      Thank you Rebecca! I did have a good night last night!

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      1. fakeflamenco Avatar

        So great to hear! Makes all the difference.

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