In a dark place

Its 2:34 in the morning. Despite my best efforts, I am wide awake!

I am feeling very low. I just feel awful. I feel so so down. My thoughts are dark. I feel an urge to do something really impulsive.

this is not good! Not good at all!

I am so not ok!

If I disappeared, I wonder would anyone notice, or care?

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22 responses to “In a dark place”

  1. Laura Venturini Avatar

    We would notice and we would care! You gotta try to change your thoughts. Think of something that makes you smile.

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      Nitro! He’s my snuggle bug!

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      1. Laura Venturini Avatar

        ❤️❤️❤️

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  2. Dragon Warrior Avatar

    Dear Carol Anne, the tides of WordPress has just brought me to you, and I am so happy for that. I have been there in your place a number of times and I know how hard it feels. I know, maybe it would be useless to say to look the happier side of life. I know it would be very, very hard indeed, but believe me, the darkness would stay just a while. Sending you much love!

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      Hugs and I thank you! Your kindness means the world to me! 🙂

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      1. Dragon Warrior Avatar

        Oh, your hug has made me so warm… It’s the sweetest welcome one can ever have… Thank you so much 😃

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      2. Carol Anne Avatar

        Welcome hun! Anytime ❤

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  3. Paula Light Avatar
    Paula Light

    Maybe play some nice music if you can’t get back to sleep. Don’t just lie there and suffer with dark thoughts. We all care about you! 💖

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      About to start reading my book now thanks Paula you’re so sweet I appreciate your support so much 😗

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  4. ashleyleia Avatar

    I think a whole lot of people would notice. xo

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      Thanks, Ashley! ❤ It means so so much to me!

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  5. skinnyhobbit Avatar

    Hugs if wanted! I would notice and would care

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      Thanks hun, your so sweet to say so. xoxo

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      1. skinnyhobbit Avatar

        You deserve good people and good thinga in your life ❤

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      2. Carol Anne Avatar

        ❤ ❤ your a sweetie! xoxo

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  6. Suzette Benjamin Avatar

    Thank you for your courage to bare your soul. Yes, that kind of strength is a gift that would truly truly be missed in this world. Much love to you. ❤️

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      You are so kind, thank you! ❤ I appreciate that very much!

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  7. Ami Avatar

    I care 💚

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      Thanks, Ami! I am so grateful to have you as my reader and blog follower!

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  8. eirlysgwenllian Avatar

    We would definitely notice and care if you disappeared. I’m sending you comforting hugs and I hope you are feeling less impulsive by now and that you got some sleep.

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    1. Carol Anne Avatar

      I did, thanks Emilia! Hugs are always welcome! I appreciate them!

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