has set in. I just feel so defeated.
I really cant deal. I am so overwhelmed. I really cant wait until tomorrow to see dr. barry. I need the apt. I need to talk this out. If I can, that is.
I am also seeing my OT mark tomorrow morning. I used to see him once a month. but since I started the ILS course we don’t see each other much. But he’s always only a phone call away.
Tomorrow will be our first apt in a while. Its just a general catch up.
I just feel so blah tonight. Everything feels like its going in slow motion. I feel very sluggish and slowed down. I don’t feel like doing anything. I need to shower for tomorrow. I put the hot water on but I don’t feel like getting in the shower. I just want to curl up and hide.
I will shower later on because I know its the right things to do so I don’t smell bad. I don’t want to go to see dr. barry and smell bad and look dirty because I didn’t shower.
I’m just on a bit of a downward spiral. And I cant seem to pull myself out of it.
so much for having a week off. If I knew it was going to be this bad I wouldn’t have wanted a week off. I hate when my mood is so bad. It is just so all consuming.
I decided on Thursday I will go to the basement club. I haven gone there since I started on the ILS course. They will think I don’t want to come in any more. Truth is though I haven’t had time. I haven’t had any time off to just go there and call in to see everyone. I am looking forward to doing tha tthis Thursday and possibly Friday too.
91 responses to “And yeah depression…”
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Awe, Sweetie, maybe it would make you feel a little better if you did shower, and fix yourself a cup of tea. Tyr looking up funny blogs to lighten your mood. If this Marc person is readily available to talk on the phone, why don’t you call at least for a pep-talk to motivate you.
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I think you should definitely do both. Try to relax, honey. Meantime, I’m going to freak out personally, because I exceed the counties limit on disability and can not be covered under regular county Medicaid, now I have to contact the state. I am so pissed off right now, I’m about to scream!
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I agree with Beckie… Even if you don’t feel like showering, it might make you feel better to take care of yourself a little bit. Sending big hugs!! xx
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Oh, sorry you’re in such a bad place right now. That is really rubbish. Hopefully DR Barry wll be helpful, I’m sure talking to her will lift you up at least a little bit. Tight hugs. You can always email me if you need.
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Thanks Emilia. I might. I need to try to pull out of it. I am trying. not easy though ug. xxx
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Hugs I know that feeling
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I’m not sure how my vitamins are. but I do use essential oil sometimes, I like them a lot
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My next suggestion is to throw it against the wall. Did I ever mention I am not good with computers? Have you figured something out?
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Maybe I should take my own advice 🙂 ❤
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Thanks. I saw Doctor Barry and it went well. It always goes well though, I really am glad I saw her today
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Thank you. I suppose it wouldn’t hurt to look into it
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A little bit, thanks
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There must be something in the air — everyone I know including myself is going through a funk. And some times you just need to lay down and curl up and do nothing. Truthfully, I look at showers/bathing as a way to relax and decompress.
Hope everything goes well with Dr. Barry. Hugs from afar!
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Yes that’s it, it is a helpless feeling, it’s horrible I hope you have a good time when you go back to work xxx
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Thank you very much. It’ll be stressful but the team I work in is really understanding which makes things easier. Hope you feel better soon. This too shall pass you know 😊
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Carol Anne:
Leslie here.
Do you belong to a Clubhouse (for recovery) In your area? If you do, can you tell me your impressions of it? Thanks Carol Anne. I am floundering and need to find help. Love to you, Leslie in Maryland USA
💜peace in your heart💜 Leslie
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Hi leslie I do! I belong to the basement club, which is a drop in centre for people with mh issues. i love it! it has given me so much hope. I would highly recommend going to a clubhouse if you can!
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Prayers for you babe! Check my blog post for today! It should give you a good burst of encouragement 🙂 http://personalgrowthsuccessblog.com/2018/03/22/dont-let-the-struggle-fool-you-the-blessing-is-there-keep-going
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You will come through the other side of this as you know, but it’s always so hard to believe that when you’re in a horrible depressive low. The sun will shine again, I promise. I wrote this blog a while ago, and wondered if it may be of some comfort for you at this time. Sending so much love, support and strength. https://talkandcheese.net/2018/02/19/life-with-bipolar/
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I hope you’re better… I was going through a tough phase myself and i have written a poem on the same. ..it would mean a lot to me if you could check my page out as I’m new here…
I’ve posted very few poems but i’d like to know your views on them!
Thanks
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Sure I will check it out…thanks for the kind comment, I am doing better now. xxx
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I’m just like you when I’m depressed. I just want to stay in my room and shut the world out completely. Unfortunately, since we have obligations it forces people like us to go out in public even when we would rather not. I’m glad you were able to go and from what the comments shows you seem to be a little better💕
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Hi I’m sorry to hear of the challenges you are facing. Below is a link to an article that may be a source of comfort.
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Thanks for that xxx ❤️
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Try and stay positive and know that many millions of people are in a similar position to you. I’ve written a post about anxiety and depression if it helps. Good luck!
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thanks! ❤
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Thanks! I appreciate your kind words! I am much better now! ❤
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Well done for sharing. I’m commenting nearly 2 months down the line. I hope you are on the road to recovery! 💛💛🙏🏾
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Great post! You’re welcome.
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I’m new! Please follow and let me know what you think! Xox
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Please check my latest post ‘Insecurity, Anxiety and Depression’. It’s specially for parents to know and understand better about their children and what they’re being going through. It’s really important to spread awareness and saving lives of our precious little kids. You’re doing great work. God bless you.
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Thanks 🙏💙
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Well done honey, good on you for battling through it. You are very brave, very strong and it has given me hope. I only recently started my own blog about my own personal experience, and reading yours has made me feel better about it, i’m not quite as scared now, so thank you so much. If interested you can check out my blog, i am making a stand towards some of the terrible medical teams who just shrug us off and society being so closed minded.
ocanobiesblog.wordpress.com
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I understand what you are going through. Depression is not the best feeling. Doctors can be useful though. However, do you believe in God? I honestly believe God can show you a way out of this issue. All you need to do is invite him into your life. Find a quiet place, imagine that Jesus is in front of you, discuss your issues with him the same way you will with a close friend. Tell him all your worries and ask him to help you. While you are praying you need to be focused and avoid distractions. You might get the feeling that God is not there or that God is not listening, this is a trick from the devil, don’t fall for it. When you get an answer to your prayer, remember to thank God. Also don’t forget to maintain a relationship with him, keep telling him about yourself and finding out about him, so that he can provide you with continued comfort now and forever more.
Good luck and God bless.
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