The Hours Refuse to Close

The ceiling hums with silence,
a taut white canvas stretched too thin.
Every minute scratches its claws
against the glass of my awareness.

I count the shadows—
four in the corner,
five along the dresser—
all of them waiting, restless
as I am.

The body begs for surrender,
but my mind loops in crooked circuits:
unfinished sentences,
half-remembered voices,
the echo of a clock I unplugged
hours ago.

Sleep lingers outside the window,
a neighbor who forgot my name.
I watch her drift
from house to house,
closing other eyes
while mine stay wide
like two lit windows
on an abandoned street.

By dawn,
I am stitched together with static,
a ghost rattling in daylight—
the night still burning
in my bones.

4 responses to “Struggling with insomnia”

  1. Lauren Scott, Author Avatar

    Wow, this is excellent writing, Carol Anne, and sometimes, I have nights like this. Hope you get some sleep tonight. xo

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    1. Carol anne Avatar

      Hey Lauren, thank you. I did get some better sleep last night. 💖💖

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  2. Stephanie Coder Avatar

    Sorry you’re dealing with insomnia. It’s awful. But I think you capture what it feels like perfectly in this piece.

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    1. Carol anne Avatar

      Yeah, I know, I hate insomnia, xo

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