Therapy Bits

she’s in pain
but she struggles hard
and only shows anger
it’s turned inward
toward herself
one who wont fight back
she rages in memories
and refuses to cry
swallowing hard
choking on self loathing
why is it herself
she releases the beast on
maybe it’s because
there’s no retaliation
or maybe it’s misplaced
she’s forgotten who was wrong
she was just a child
doing the bidding of adults
yet she finds herself to blame
for all the world that trembled
and she blames herself
for what slipped thru little fingers
but who was there to catch her
and clean up the mess
mother, father, were not
and where were the rest
i think when someone learns to rely
only on themselves
they also learn to place the blame
with that person too
so anger becomes self hate
because you are safe and unabandoning
;but why doesn’t love
ever become…