What do you do when you stop seeing yourself in your own future?
Shit…
It’s been a rough few weeks. What do i mean? I mean that it’s so hard for me to see a future right now. It’s hard to imagine living like this in 5 years or 10 years.
I’m not necessarily suicidal— i just don’t see myself with a future.
My meds are wrong & dr. Barry and I are working on them. I barely avoided another hospital stay because i asked to give a chance to give a change in meds a chance. Auditory, visual & even olfactory hallucinations… self harm, lack of sleep, no appetite all due to an AMAZING manic phase (and i am getting SOOO much done!)… But I’m no fool. I know what happens next— a bottomless depression is looming.
THIS is my trigger season. THIS is the season of pain & body memory & flashback & dissociation. Oh God… it just ain’t good.
Therapy Bits 
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