I’m in a trans

Doing a sort of melancholic dance

Look on the bright side, suicide

It is the only way out

I shout

But nobody’s listening to me

Lost eyesight, I’m on your side

Will I ever come back?

No, I’m on the attack

Stay out of my way

Or get swallowed up by depression

Sadness, fear

Lots of tears

I fear the dark

Lights out, no spark

Just a dull awful ache

A throbbing headache.

I’m in suicide’s grip

And I feel as though I’ll slip.

Written in response to D-verse poetics, hosted by Melissa

The song lyrics I chose to write my poem on are:

Look on the bright side, suicide
Lost eyesight, I’m on your side

From the song, Milk it…

Happy birthday, Kurt🎉 | dVerse (dversepoets.com)

10 responses to “I’m feeling suicidal but thats not all”

  1. Melissa Lemay Avatar

    “Stay out of my way
    Or get swallowed up by depression
    Sadness, fear”

    I like that you touched on the burnout that can occur when we watch our loved ones so depleted. You almost have to recharge after being there for someone in so much emotional turmoil.

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    1. Carol anne Avatar

      Thank you Melissa, I’m glad you liked my poem 😁

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  2. msjadeli Avatar

    Not a good place to be. Hope this is 100% fictional, Carol Anne?

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    1. Carol anne Avatar

      Hey Lisa, unfortunately it isn’t, I’m not suicidal at the moment but I’ve been there tons of times in the past few years 💞💞

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      1. msjadeli Avatar

        Carol, please take good care of yourself ❤

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      2. Carol anne Avatar

        Thanks, Lisa, I will ❤

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  3. dorahak Avatar

    Perfectly picks up on the tone of Cobain’s song, Carol Anne. Well done!

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    1. Carol anne Avatar

      Thanks, Dora! Xoxo

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  4. Björn Rudberg (brudberg) Avatar

    To get swallowed of the darkness of a person is so apt.

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