What do you regret not doing, being, or having in your life?

I regret not speaking out about the abuse that I was going through sooner. But I was threatened by my abuser, they said if I told they’d kill me, and my family.

I believed them, because I was a child, and kids believe what they are told.

I know now that if I’d have spoken out sooner, I could’ve gotten away, and the abuse wouldn’t have lasted for 11 years.

If I had spoken out, my mom would’ve taken me out of that boarding school sooner.

As it was, I didn’t get away until I was sixteen years old.

I suffered in silence for 11 years, going through all forms of abuse, but severe sexual and psychological, and ritual abuse.

It is my one regret in life, that I could not find the courage to speak out sooner.

Sunday Poser #209- Regrets – Keep it alive

16 responses to “My one regret #Sunday poser”

  1. Ephemeral Encounters Avatar

    Carol Anne 😪
    I am so sorry you had to go through this.

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    1. Carol anne Avatar

      Thank you Maggie, I go through it a lot! Xoxo

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      1. Ephemeral Encounters Avatar

        Hugs Carol Anne xoxo

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      2. Carol anne Avatar

        Thanks, Maggie XOXO

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  2. Sadje Avatar

    Oh I’m so sorry dear friend about this and if you let these regrets fester in your mind you will always be disturbed by them. It’s time to let what happened in the past stay there and move on with courage. Thanks for sharing. I hope anyone reading this can learn from your experience. Hugs

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    1. Carol anne Avatar

      That would be my hope too, if someone reads this and learns from my experience, I’ll be happy xx

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      1. Sadje Avatar

        Exactly right. If it helps someone else than it’s good

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      2. Carol anne Avatar

        Absolutely true 🩷🩷

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      3. Sadje Avatar

        🥰🤗🥹

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  3. Stine Writing and Miniatures Avatar

    I cannot even imagine how it feels to look back and want to do something so much different, knowing now that things could have been different. But then it wasn’t you who was being evil or manipulative so why would you think to do things differently? Shame on the people who hurt others intentionally. The only way to truly get back at any of those people is to show them that you survived and you became a good person despite them.

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    1. Carol anne Avatar

      You’re right, Christine. That is the only way to get back at them. 🙏💖💖

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  4. Ana Daksina Avatar

    You certainly have found the courage to speak out now, though ~ and you use it for everybody’s good!

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    1. Carol anne Avatar

      I have, and I’m glad I do speak out now 💗💗

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