Tag: pessary

So after 2 very sleepless nights, I finally was able to get a decent nights rest last night. I am at my parents’ house, and I slept on the couch, my choice. Mom and I were watching tv, and I took my night meds around 9 PM. By 10 PM I was falling asleep sitting up on the recliner, so mom swapped places with me and let me lie on the couch, while she sat on the recliner. I don’t really remember much after I lay down, mom covered me with a blanket, and I was out for the count. I did not wake until 5 AM when Charlie came in and was looking to go for a wee so I had to get up to let him out. I went right back to bed until about 6:45, when mom got up. We had some tea together, before I went back to lay on the couch and read. Mom said my eyes look closed, and it looks like I’m half out of it. It is probably from the extra valium I am taking, but that can’t be helped. I have to have it otherwise I’ll have extremely bad anxiety. It is still bad enough with the valium, but it’s a little more manageable. Mom and me and my sister are all going out to lunch today, we’re taking mom out because tomorrow is mother’s day here. We’re going to Cobh, a tourist town on the outskirts of cork. I did end up having a check in call with Eileen last night, which was nice. She was able to reassure us that we’ll get through this tough time, because we’re made of tough stuff, we’re strong, and capable, and not to doubt our abilities. I love her. She’s always so validating. She talked to Emily for a while also, because Emily was feeling hopeless and suicidal. She’s feeling a little better today. All of us are excited to go to Cobh and lunch with our mom. I’m having a lot of itchiness in my vaginal area this morning, so after I took a bubble bath, mom helped me to put up a pessary, and that will hopefully help. It is hurting now, but mom said that it will melt, and the sensation I’m experiencing will ease. I hope so. Right now it is quite painful.