Getting fit and joining a gym

I just got off the phone to the very nice people at the local gym which is near my college. I am going to join and go 3 or more times a week. I feel it is the only way I’ll actually stick to doing exercise, if I actually have to physically go there to do it. Doing exercise at home just isnt working out for me. Most times I either forget to do it or get distracted and or too tired to do any. The gym I picked is very disability friendly. They even have a place where I can leave my guide dog nitro. I’m very pleased with what I found out from them, and tomorrow I’ll go for the first time. They have an instructor on the floor for everyone, but the very nice receptionist told me he’d help me set up the machines and check up on me as I work out. For now I’ll pay as I go, and if I grow to like it I may even become a full member. Who knows, once I get fit I may even join some classes too!
Carol anne


Feeling extremely on edge and triggered this morning. Its all related to the time of year it is. October is a terrible month for me for triggers. I just want to hide…run, not feel…
Feel so emotional, sadness mixed with numbness, have been crying off and on all morning.

30 days of writing challenge, day 1

Day one: 10 things that make you really happy

Seeing my therapist or psychiatrist
Petting my guide dog
Socialising with friends
Spending time with my niece and nephew
eating good food
having good conversations


I wish I didnt feel so alone. Granted its the middle of the night and most people are in bed. If anyones up I could use some support. Feeling overwhelmed and triggered. Trying to sit here and drink my coffee and not think too much about stuff. This month just sucks. I hate being a SRa survivor. Certain dates and months really trigger me to no end. I wish I was able to call my therapist, she always helps when I am like this. If anyones up I’d welcome a chat.