Booktag! books are great!

•Author you’ve read the most books from: Cathy Glass, I’ve read all 24 books by her
•Best Sequel Ever: Not sure!
•Currently reading: Groomed by Casey watson
•Drink of Choice While Reading: Coffee!
•E-reader or Physical Book?: Definitely E reader!
•Fictional Character You Probably Would Have Actually Dated In High School: Ron from harry potter
•Glad You Gave This Book A Chance: A common struggle
•Hidden Gem Book: Any of the chicken soup books
•Important Moment in your Reading Life: Every time a new fostering memoir comes out!
•Just Finished: Where has mummy gone by cathy glass
•Kinds of Books You Won’t Read: Fantasy & horror
•Longest Book You’ve Read: The body keeps the score, it was 16 hours long!
•Major book hangover because of: All the cathy glass books!
•Number of Bookcases You Own: Reduced my shelves to 1!
•One Book You Have Read Multiple Times: Charlottes web
•Preferred Place To Read: bed
•Quote that inspires you/gives you all the feels from a book you’ve read: Cant think of one right now.
•Reading Regret: Who ever regrets reading?
•Series You Started And Need To Finish (all books are out in series): Harry potter
•Three of your All-Time Favourite Books: the fault in our stars, my sisters keeper, will you love me?.
•Unapologetic Fangirl For: I’m not really
•Very Excited For This Release More Than All The Others: Every time Cathy Glass is releasing haha
•Worst Bookish Habit: Not exploring different genres
•X Marks The Spot: I have no idea what this means haha
•Your latest book purchase: sold to be a wife by Maggie hartley
•ZZZ-snatcher book (last book that kept you up WAY late): where has mummy gone by cathy glass

Gratitude!

Its nearing the end of my day! So I thought I’d write up what I’m grateful for today.

A nice walk with my mom

My amazing dog nitro

Healthy food

That mom cooked for me today

That I have enough money to get me through the rest of the month

A cup of tea

My friends

Books

Time to relax and reflect

A hot shower

Question of the day

So today, my question to you is this…

What has benefited you most in your healing journey?

For me, it is a few things. Writing is one. Having this blog, somewhere to share, has helped me so so much. I love my blog. I love all of you my blog buddies. Your all amazing and you’ve been so kind to me. It doesn’t go unnoticed.

Having a therapist has also helped us greatly. Its hard work but so worth it. Processing memories, doing EMDR is hard. But I wouldn’t change it for the world. I have gotten so much out of therapy.

Music, reading, hot tea, essential oils, my dog, all also help me.

So what helps you and has benefited you in your healing?

Oct. 16th weird holidays

The holidays for October 16th, 2018 are:
Global Cat Day
Information Overload Day
National Boss Day
National Cut Up Your Credit Card Day
National Department Store Day
National Dictionary Day
National Face Your Fears Day
National Learn a Word Day
National Liqueur Day
National Pharmacy Technician Day
Pro-Life Day of Silent Solidarity
Steve Jobs Day
World Food Day
World Spine Day

A great morning!

so I had a fab workout! I did well! I went on the treadmill for 25 mins, and the bike for 10 mins! I did 1 KM on the treadmill and 2 KM on the bike! I feel great! It has really lifted my mood to exercise!
I’m all set now for the rest of the day! When I came out of the gym I went and bought a sandwich for my lunch, I chose chicken and stuffing, on brown bread! So a healthy option for lunch! I already ate it once I got home! I was starving as all I’d eaten was some fruit this morning.
A funny thing happened. When I got my taxi to go home, I told the driver I was going to my own house. The driver knew me, he usually picks me up. He thought I’d said I wanted to go to my parents house though! So he brought me there instead of bringing me home! Luckily I noticed when we got out of the car. He was kind and said it was his mistake and brought me home and didn’t charge me anything extra for the extra journey!
I’m just relaxing now for a few hours before I am going out again to go volunteering. My supervisor called me, she’s picking me up at 2 PM. I am tanked up on coffee now so my energy levels are good! 🙂

Its nice to see you smiling, Em

hhhihihihi everybody
I wanted to share something
this morning I went to therapy
I was the first one of us out in our session
Eileen came in to the office, and we were chatting
I asked her to guess who I am
she said she wasn’t sure
she joked that shes good but shes not that good
so I told her then it was me em
she hugged me and said
its nice to see you smiling, em
that made me smile even more
it was so lovely of her to say that to me
I haven’t been smiling a lot lately
there has be nothing good happening to smile about
not for me anyway
I thot it was so cool she noticed that
but then im not surprised
she notices everything about me
any little changes and she notices
I gess she knows me really well
butterfly hugs
loves you,
Emily age 12

Feel wobbly

Feeling off right now. Feel a bit shit if I am honest. A bit wobbly. Unstable. And emotional.

Not sure what is wrong. I just feel, crappy.

I am gonna have to try to distract myself from the feelings…easier said than done.

I think stirring up all the memories today in therapy has set us off. I hope we’re not in for a night of it now. I feel like a torrent of flashbacks is coming. I don’t know how else to describe it. I just feel a little crazy.

God I hate this feeling. I want some stability. I want this month to end. I want out and away from October.

I feel like screaming. I feel sort of insane right now. Sort of like I’m manic. Or having very manic feelings. All crazy and mixed up.