well I decided I am going into work! I have to go in! I need distraction! I need to keep busy! So in I will go! I have 2 hours though before I get picked up. 2 hours to chill…yay. I am a busy bee today. What with my pa coming this morning, then work, and then slimming world this evening. I’m sure I’m going to be up tonight at weigh in. I cant see how I wont be up. when I gave up last week, I decided to eat what I wanted for a few days, before I decided I’d actually go back to slimming world again. So that means a bad result. If I am down it will be a miracle. We will see I suppose. I’m going tonight anyway and hoping for a miracle. But if I am up I am up. I’ll take it on the chin and just try to start fresh for next week so that next week I will be down. I’m going to a new slimming world group tonight. New group, new consultant. My consultant isn’t going to be there though, she’s on holidays, so we have a fill in one instead. But the actual consultant knows I am coming, because I spoke to her on the phone last week. I am excited to start with a new group but a little nervous too. Change is hard for me, and I got on well at the old group, so I am hoping this new one will also be a success. I’ll keep you posted. Please cross your fingers I’ll have a good result, or if not that I will not be up by too much. I got all of my housework done so my house looks fab now all clean and tidy. That’s one positive. Nitro was a bad puppy though. I was eating an orange and I had two segments of it in my hand. I gave him one piece and then he came over and took the other one out of my hand, he was so quick that I couldn’t stop him. Such a cutie, but oh so bad! I hope he enjoyed it. I didn’t think he’d like oranges. I thought dogs didn’t like them because of the citrus taste of them. But he ate it. He’d eat anything I sware guys! Anyway off to make a nice cup of coffee now and then read for a while. Catch you all later!
so I am a happy camper this morning! I slept great! I needed the sleep badly! I ended up going to visit my friend norma yesterday afternoon, I stayed there for about 3 hours. Then I came home, ate dinner, and decided to have an early night. I was in bed by 9 PM. And asleep by 10. And I only woke up twice during the night, for about 5 minutes each time. I am delighted. I feel much better this morning having gotten some good sleep. Im still feeling low though. I am trying to remember to take my meds every morning. I take my prozac in the morning, and my other mood stabiliser at night. I am trying hard to remember them. So far it is working. I have been taking them regularly.
My PA is coming in an hour. We’re just going to do some housework today and I need to get her to go to the store for me too. She’ll be here for 2.5 hours. I’m also meant to work today. Not sure yet whether I will go in or not though. I may just stay home today. I am kinda not really feeling up to going in but we’ll see, I may feel differently as the morning progresses.
Well going to go drink my coffee, and get dressed. Happy tuesday everyone!
I slept well last night. I worked yesterday, I worked from home, except I was at my parents house. I made around 30 calls. That all went off ok, all of my clients were doing well. I ended up sleeping for 2 hours in the afternoon after working, I decided to sleep while I was waiting for my mom and dad to get home, they were at my dads best friends funeral, well not a funeral, but the burial of his ashes. They went back to a bar afterwords, for food, and drinks. they got home around 5 PM. I got up then, had dinner, and then went right back to bed. Read for a while, but could barely keep my eyes open.
I was meant to talk to Eileen last night, but we didnt end up talking. I texted her at 7 PM. She didnt text me back right away. At 7:25 PM I decided to wait to talk to her until today, so I texted her again and I told her we could wait, and talk today, so that is what we’re doing. I already texted her this morning, I told her I am free all day so to call me whenever it suits her.
I am not going to get up to much today. I will just relax, read, and enjoy a quiet day at mom and dads, my dad is going out for a while, so it will be just me and mom here.
Nitro started his ear drops this morning. That was a bit of an ordeal. He hates getting them put in. Mom did it for me. I held his head while she put them in. That was hard, as he didnt want to keep still. they are in now though and this evening I will have to put more in.
I am going to go make a coffee now. I hope your all having a good start to your day.
I did it, I went in to work. Despite my low mood. Despite feeling really off. I couldnt not go in. I knew they were short staffed, and they were dependingn on me. So I opted to go in. I even went in early. I went in in the morning, and stayed until the afternoon. But I did get home a little earlier than usual. I had a good shift. All of my clients were in good spirits. It was nice to chat to them. Some of them were so appreciative of my call. One lady in particular kept telling me how grateful she was for my call. Hearing that makes all the difference and spurs me on to keep doing the job. I get so much out of it. I am happy I pushed through my low mood and went in today. I feel all the better for it. When I got home I napped for 2 hours. I just felt like napping, so I did. Now I feel energised and full of life again.
work today was good, but very taxing. a client kept phoning the office, over and over.
We had called her, and one of the other volunteers, spend a whole hour on the phone with her. She’s a very needy client. She has complex mental health issues, and thats fine, I mean there is nothing wrong in that, but none of the volunteers are really trained to deal with that sort of thing.
I’m doing my mental health in the community course, so I will be trained in dealing with complex mental health stuff soon, but for now I am winging it.
We had to tell her that we needed to make a lot of other calls, so we couldnt spend a lot of time talking to her after the initial call, which had lasted for an hour.
We felt so bad for her. But she had her daughter coming over. We decided to call her daughter to make sure she was definitely going to visit her, since she’d been quite upset on the phone.
Then I had to call another clients sister, she is the clients contact person to call in an emergency. I had tried to get through to the client, but she wasnt answering her landline or cell phone at all. That is very unusual for her not to answer. Normally she’s always in and she always answers our calls.
I got through to her sister, who said she’d contact the clients son, to make sure she’s ok, my worry was she might have fallen, or be ill, and unable to call someone to let them know. She lives alone, and she is elderly.
I really am hoping she’s ok.
Some days work is really busy. And some days, like today, sometimes its very hectic and it depletes me of energy. I was glad to get home, I am going to relax for the rest of the day now. We have an outing next week, on thursday, we’ll be taking the clients out for afternoon tea. I dont know yet if I am definitely going, but I will if I am able and dont have anything else to do.
I am so thankful its friday!
I got up very early. I had a fantastic nights sleep. I am also so thankful for that fact. I was up at 6:30, and I hopped in the shower! I felt so good after my shower! Its a warm day here, and it just felt so good to wake up and get in the shower right away!
I’ve had a nice chilled morning, its been relaxing. I ate breakfast, was online for a while, and am now drinking some coffee, before I get ready for work!
I’m also waiting for my meds to be delivered. My dads gone out for a while, and I am here with the dogs, but I think my dad will be back before I have to go to work.
I’m looking forward to going in to work today. I didnt go in on tuesday, so I am really looking forward to going in today. I’m glad I skipped it on tuesday, I just wasnt in a place emotionally to go in, so the easiest thing was to not go, and take care of my own mental health.
Now that I’ve done that, I will be able to be more available to my clients.
Eileen texted me last night, she’s still stuck out in spain. She doesnt know when she’s going to be coming home, she said she’d keep me updated, wich I am thankful for.
I have an apt with Catrina my resource worker at the national council for the blind in the morning. Its about employment, but I am not sure what we’ll actually be doing. I went to her a few weeks ago to do some work on job skills, and we did a personality test also. She didn’t tell me what this session is going to be about. all she said is, it will take an hour and a half. So I am wondering now what it will be all about. I am a little anxious about it if I am honest. I am still just getting to know her and its hard to open up to her. I don’t know her well enough to be totally honest with her, although I do try to be as open as I can be with her. And I did tell her about my mental health difficulties. I just hope that the apt goes well and is beneficial to me. I guess we’ll see in the morning. I hope I can sleep tonight, but right now I am thinking I really don’t know if I will or not. I am hoping I do though.