Living life with dissociative identity disorder and complex ptsd
Well I have a bad migraine this morning. I woke up with it. I hate migraines! I hope this one wont last the entire day!
I’m not going in to work. I told my supervisor and she was fine with it. I know if I go in the headache will just get worse. What I need to do now is just lie down in a dark room and sleep it off.
I hope its gone by this evening, so I can still go to slimming world for my weekly weigh in.
We had a lovely time this morning at the craft fare. Mom went with me, my aunt was also meant to go but at the last minute she changed her mind, so mom and I went on our own.
There was lots of stalls, it was more packed this year, there were more sellers and there were more people looking also.
I bought a lovely ornament for the christmas tree, made out of glass. Its actually shaped like a christmas tree.
I also bought an angel thats inside a snow globe. And I got a few gift sets and some homemade dog treats.
I met lots of people there that knew me. I even met an old teacher who used to teach me at nursery school. I also met a girl who was a trainer at the guide dog school when I was getting my first dog, she now works at my canine companion which gives dogs to kids with autism.
I bought a load of raffle tickets, I entered 3 raffles. And I won! I won first prize in one of the raffles. I won a big basket filled with makeup and face and body creams. It was so nice to win!
The fare went on for about 2 hours. We had some tea and chatted and looked around, and before we knew it it was finished. When it was over I went to work. It wasnt too busy in the office. I was only in there for about 2 hours.
Overall it w was a lovely day. When I came home I gave Nitro some treats, and he loved them!
This morning I am going to a craft fare. Its in aid of friendly call, so I am going to support them. I am probably not going to buy anything, but I will enter the raffles and try to win something. And you never know, if I see something I love, I will buy it. Last year when I went to this far I bought a lovely glass angel. But it is not required that you have to buy something. All funds raised from the fare go to friendly call. There will be tea and cakes and biscuits too. I think it will be a lovely morning. After the fare is over I have to go next door to the office and work for a few hours. I promised my supervisor I would. And anyway, todays my day to work. So I am all set! I am sure it will be a great day!
My dad is a bloody nightmare! He keeps giving Nitro dog biscuits, and anything that he can find that Nitro can eat! I keep telling him Nitro doesnt need the treats, but he doesnt listen!
The girls at work are the same! They keep getting nitro dog treats, and even got him some sausages recently from the chip shop next door to our office.
Nitro is getting fatter by the minute! I am losing my rag!
I dont want him to be too overweight! But nobody listens to me!
Its so irritating! I am not sure how I can fix this but I know I need to!
Anyone got some good ideas for me? How do I tell all these people, that, they’re killing my dog!
I’m not pleased about all this!
I dont want my boy to develop arthritis!
I hope I will be able to get through to my dad soon! And I am not to worried about work, as sometimes Nitro doesnt come with me, and, if I say no to the girls in the office, they dont try to override my decision.
Its my dad, he’s tough to deal with! He loves dogs, and he’s a soft touch!
I hope someone has a good idea for me on how to make him stop? I suppose I’ll just have to say, clearly, your shortening Nitros life!
And hope he’ll listen to that!
Any morning where I can wake up feeling good is a good one! I woke up this morning feeling fab!
I will be going into work later on. My supervisor is in Dublin today, but she texted me and said she’d email me on my call list. She wants me to go in at 2 Pm today. She said she’d have one of the other girls pick me up, but I told her if its easier I’ll just book a taxi. So we’ll see, but either way I am going in to work.
I also gave my mom 120 euro to get me some dollars at the post office. My spending money for colorado is steadily growing and I am delighted about that.
My sisters bringing the kids over at 10:30 this morning. They dont have school today because there is an election here and voting takes place in the schools. So mom is babysitting them while my sister goes to work.
I can tell today is going to be a great day! I just love it when days go like this!
I am not doing great this evening. I decided to go to my parents tonight instead of tomorrow. So I am here now.
I’ve had a nice long bubble bath and that felt good. It calmed me and made me feel a little bit better. My anxiety is still quite high. I still feel very off.
I gave my PA the morning off tomorrow. I was meant to go to the beauticians in the morning to get my nails soaked off, and get waxing done. However I rescheduled the apt to next tuesday.
I will go to work tomorrow though. I havent been in work this week at all, so I do need to go in. I think I’ll be ok, although I doubt I’ll sleep tonight, as I slept a lot today. I had planned to go out as there was a group of us from the basement club meeting the old staff members for coffee this evening, but I couldnt go. I just didnt feel like socialising with anyone so I canceled it.
I am sure things will get better over the weekend. I’ll be here at my parents now until Sunday. Mom and my sis and me are going to do a little more christmas shopping on saturday afternoon. That will cheer me up. I love the buzz around town at christmas time.
I do need to finish up an assignment for college too this weekend. Its my final one. Thank god! I will finish it on sunday morning. Then I’ll be done with it and can enjoy the last week of college, yay!
I finish on the 7th! Two more classes and we’re done!
So I didnt go in to work today. I woke up feeling terrible. I decided the best thing I could do was stay home. No point in me going in there and trying to listen to others when I am not doing well myself.
I still feel very anxious. I woke up a few times during the night with crippling anxiety. I even got up once and went out to the kitchen to get a glass of water and something to eat.
I really do think the best thing is for me to just stay out of work today. I do my job much better when I am in a good mood, and feeling positive and ok in myself.
Eileen texted me last night. She said she was finished her training and she was looking forward to seeing us on monday. I texted her back, wishing her a nice weekend and I said I couldnt wait until monday to see her.
It was nice to be able to go to sleep knowing she’d texted us. Felt great just hearing from her.
