I will not try to predict the future!

Well today Nova has given us the word vatic, google told me it meant describing or predicting what will happen in the future.
I do this a lot! I am forever trying to see into the future!
I know I shouldnt, I know I should live in the now. And actually, today in therapy we talked a little bit about that. We were discussing going for the smear test, and Eileen said to me, its a very present day thing, its happening now, and even though there are insiders in your system who are remembering things from the past, abuse from their past, that we need to live for now, be in the now, and having that test today was very much in the here and now!
It was my 39 year old self doing that!
I didnt try to predict what was going to happen after the test, eileen said we needed to break it down, into two parts. having the test today, and the results of it which I will get in a few months. No one knows what those results will tell me, there really is no point in trying to be vatic, I should just wait and see what happens!
I can do it! I am not going to think about it now! I will just go on with my life, and not try to foresee the future ahead of me!


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I wish

I wish
for just one day
where I dont feel so depressed
where I can just breathe
where I feel ok
I wish
for one day
which is peaceful
I hope
and wish
And pray
today will be that day
for me
I’m doing everything I can
To make it so
I’m excited today
By the things I have planned
So I just wish
And hope
That today
Is the day
I feel happy, and just feel good


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Freaked out! A story about a wasp!

When my PA got to me today, she couldnt wait to come in. She had to tell me something, she said. I waited, wondering what it was. She sounded like it was something important.
She sat down in the kitchen and began, the other day, when we left here, and went to your moms in the taxi, and when I dropped you off, when I got back in the taxi, I had a shooting pain in my side!
Oh yeah? I said!
She continued, I got to my next job, walked in, looked in the mirror, but before I could look, when I pulled up my top a wasp dropped out onto the floor! Then I realised I’d been stung!
Omg! I said! Was it painful? Obviously it was if you said you got a pain in your side?
Oh yes, she continued, very very painful!
I had to go to the pharmacy! A lady there gave me antihistamines and ointment to put on it! I think I got the sting out but am not sure! Its still all red and swollen! And its still very painful!
I started freaking out then, as anyone who knows me knows I am terrified of bees, wasps, all bugs actually! So where do you think it came from? I said in a panic.
I think it came from the tree outside your house, she said!
I was leaning up against it as we waited for our taxi and that is how I think it went up my top!
I hate to say this, it makes me look bad, but man am I glad it was her and not me! I do not want a sting from a wasp! I hope I never get one either!


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Have a giggle!

“Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until they speak.”
– Steven Wright

“It’s okay if you don’t like me. Not everyone has good taste.”

“If you find me offensive. Then I suggest you quit finding me.”

“I love sarcasm. It’s like punching people in the face but with words.”

“I’m not saying I hate you, what I’m saying is that you are literally the Monday of my life.”

“Unless your name is Google stop acting like you know everything.”

“Find your patience before I lose mine.”

“I never forget a face, but in your case, I’ll be glad to make an exception.”

“My imaginary friend says that you need a therapist.”

“Just because the voices only talk to me doesn’t mean you should get all jealous. You’re just a little too crazy for their taste.”

“Sarcasm, because beating the crap out of people is illegal.”

“I’ve got a good heart but this mouth…”

“Tell me how I have upset you, because I want to know how to do it again.”

“I’m not crazy! The voices tell me I am entirely sane.”

“Thank you for leaving my side when I was alone. I realized I can do so much without you.”


I need to sanctify my soul
Free it from thoughts
that threaten to engulf me
bad, evil thoughts
of bad, evil people
please god
sanctify my soul
free it from all pain
all thoughts
all sin
I just need to sanctify it
any time now
any time will do
I cannot deal
With the severe flashbacks
to pain from my past
to evil and sin
that I took part in
because others made me
Please sanctify it all
away now, god, please?
In response to the word of the day, which is sanctify

Elephants make me smile, from Emily

hi. its emily. for people who dont know me im 12. and Im an alter in our system. im going to write a little.  i hope all of you are having a good night.
i wanted to write about elephants. the prompt word for the word of the day today is elephant.
elephants are so amazing. they are so big. i wish i could ride on one. now that’d be neat. can you even do that? does anyone know if you can ride on an elephant? i like to visit the zoo and see the elephants at the zoo. thats a whole lot of fun.
i think they eat peanuts, i’d like to feed them peanuts, it’d be fun to see them suck them up with their trunks. Does anyone else know what elephants eat?
i like to watch programmes about elephants too. nature programmes. i like nature documentaries. i bet none of you knew that about me. you probably just knowed i liked butterflies. i like a lot of animals actually. i love nature and think its fascinating.
does anyone else like nature shows?
Elephants got big ears too. Maybe they hear real good cuz they got such big ears. I think they use their ears for something maybe its to cool them down? Im not sure. But I know their ears are huge.
I like the sound they make, too. The trumpety trump sound.
And I like the song nelly the elephant, does anyone know it? Its a kids song. I used to know all the words to it. But I forgot some of them now. We had a cd when we were little, of animal songs, and that song was on it.
So do you like elephants?
butterfly hugs ❤
Loves you,
emily age 12

Novas random word of the day, sapient

Dawn looked at adam. Her blue eyes pierced right through him as she stared intently at him.
But adam, she said, with a huge sigh, you know I am right! I am far more sapient than you are!
Women are way more sapient!
Adam kept disagreeing with her! No! He shouted, It isn’t so!
Oh yeah? well then, give me 3 good reasons why it isn’t so!
Adam couldn’t give even one. So after much thinking, he gave in and walked off.
Dawn had won the argument, see?
She always knew women were more sapient than men.
They had all the answers to arguments about that too!
She decided to go see what all her friends were up to and to tell them I won an argument!
Meanwhile, Adam was busy trying to think of reasons for why men and women differed so much.
I suppose I’ll never really know, he said, as he stared glumly into his cup of tea.

#NDRW – #60