its allie. well my long name is alicia, but my friends and other people either call me allie or licia or lish or trouble hahahah.
i’m feelin sad tonight. i realy want to know if eileen is safe. i worry that she isnt. specially with all the bad stuff going on on the news.
i was going to text her tonight. but carol anne said no. then that made me mad. because i dont like when the bigs here make rules stupid rules that we gotta follow.
so then i had a melt down. those melt downs arent pretty. i broke some things. i threw my stuffed animals all over the room. i turned a couple of drawers up side down and all of my art supplies and stickers and stuff fell onto the floor. i didnt care. it felt good to release the anger.
the room was a huge mess though after my outburst. i couldnt clean it. i was crying too hard.
i needed a hug from eileen. i needed her to tell me its ok, and i am safe. and she is here. carol anne says i need to talk to her on the phone this thursday. tell her what I did.
i guess i can do that
sometimes i hate myself for being so needy and clingy and a baby and wanting eileen and dr. barry to adopt me and be my forever mom. the pain is unbearable and every part of my body physically hurts.
i just feel like crap tonight.