FEAR AND APPREHENSION

ITS LIZ. I HAVE A LOT OF FEAR IN ME RIGHT NOW. I FEAR EVERYTHING, AND EVERYONE. ITS HARD TO ADMIT TO IT. I AM NORMALLY A STRONG PERSON. NORMALLY I’D JUST SAY, FUCK IT. I WOULDNT LET FEAR RULE ME. I WOULDNT GIVE IN TO IT.

BUT THIS LATEST CONTACT LAST WEEK FROM A PAST ABUSER HAS SHAKEN ME, I FEEL UNSAFE, UNSAFE IN OUR HOME. IT FEELS HARD. ITS HARD TO SLEEP AT NIGHT. ITS HARD TO COPE. ITS HARD TO SOOTHE THE KIDS, THEY GET SO FREAKED OUT, AND TO BE TOTALLY HONEST, WE’RE ALL FREAKING OUT, KIDS, TEENS, AND ADULTS.

WE ARE NERVOUS TO GO OUTSIDE. EVEN LETTING NITRO OUT, WE’RE NERVOUS. WE’RE NERVOUS IN CASE SOMEONE COULD BE OUTSIDE WATCHING US. I KNOW THAT SEEMS REALLY IRRATIONAL. I MEAN, MORE THAN LIKELY NOBODY IS GOING TO BE OUT THERE. BUT BEING BLIND, ITS HARD, WE CANT SEE TO SEE SOMEONE IF THEY ARE.

I GUESS I AM JUST VERY SPOOKED, AND SCARED. WE’RE ONLY GETTING 3 HOURS OF SLEEP AT A TIME. WE’RE CONSTANTLY ON HIGH ALERT. ITS HORRIBLE AND AN AWFUL WAY TO SURVIVE AND LIVE. I WISH IT WASNT THIS WAY. BUT I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO CHANGE THINGS.

I’M JUST HOPING WHEN WE SEE EILEEN TODAY THAT WE CAN TALK TO HER. I PLAN ON TALKING TO HER ABOUT ALL OF IT. IF ANYONE CAN HELP, SHE CAN. I’M SURE OF IT. SHE’LL KNOW WHAT TO DO. I HAVE FAITH IN HER.
LIZ

A good read!

Hi guys! I have been watching the irish book awards tonight. I love books so this was right up my street!
One of the books that won an award was the book overcoming by vicky phelan.
Vicky phelan is a woman who got cervical cancer, and she blew the whistle on the cervical check scandal, over 200 women in ireland got wrong smear test results and were wrongly diagnosed, and they all ended up with cervical cancer because of it.
Overcoming tells her story. Its a fantastic read and I highly recommend it. Its in print and on audible as well.
If your looking for your next good read, pick this book up!
After she won the award tonight she gave an interview and she’s like a breath of fresh air! This woman campaigned and took the medical profession to court, won her case, but she’s terminally ill and we should not forget that!
She’s now on a trial medication and so far it is working for her. But she’s slowly dying.
If you read any book this year, please read vickys book.

SO JADED

I AM WORN DOWN
BEATEN
I AM SO JADED
BUT STILL
STILL I GO ON
I RISE UP
DO WHAT I NEED TO
TO SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD
I AM STRONG
DESPITE THINKING I AM NOT
I SHALL CONTINUE
TO FIGHT
DESPITE
THE OVERWHELM
EMOTIONAL INSTABILITY
AND PAIN

LIZ

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Working on us mental health prompt, week 4

This week I am again participating in beckys working on us mental health prompt. Becky blogs over at Beckys mental mess, I urge you to go check her out if you dont know her already! She is an amazing blogger, so kind, supportive, and caring!
This week she gave us two prompts, a questions prompt and a photo prompt. I am choosing to participate in the questions prompt.
Below you’ll find the questions, and my answers.

Prompt #1 Questions:

How do you deal with the Stigma surrounding your mental disorder/illness?

I write a blog to raise awareness! My disorder is rare, I have did, did is so misunderstood in the mental health community. So I write my blog to raise awareness of the disorder.

Does the Stigma associated with mental health bother you? If so, in what way?

Yes. People think those of us with did are monsters! I’m not saying everyone does, but the media has made sure that did is something to be afraid of, they either sensationalise it or else make us all out to be freaks and monsters!

I absolutely hate it!

Once again thanks to becky of beckys mental mess her post is below if you want to read and participate!

http://beckiesmentalmess.blog/2019/06/26/june-26-2019-working-on-us-mental-health-prompts-for-blogging-community-week-4-questions-and-photo-prompts/

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