Didnt see dr. barry today because of stupid ptsd symptoms

I was meant to see dr. barry today. since eileen is away we were meant to have an extra appointment. but i was so exhausted this morning that i didnt go. i did get up at like 6 or there abouts, had coffee, took a shower, booked my taxi, but then i started having a lot of ptsd symptoms and couldnt get outt of the house. so i canceled the taxi and went back to bed. i was feeling very disappointed with myself, because i hate to miss seeing dr. barry. i did phone her office and spoke to her secretary and she gave me another appointment for next wednesday. but i needed her today. why does ptsd always have to ruin everything?
carol anne