I am being a night owl tonight. I slept earlier for a few hours. Woke up around 1:30 AM. Couldn’t go back to sleep, so got up.
Been messing around online for a while. Sorting out my TV shows, uploading them to open drive. That is taking me a while. I also made myself some nice vegetable soup. Comfort food.
Our mood is relatively ok. We don’t feel anxious right now. I’m counting that as a win. I love it when I am feeling stable. Long may it last.
So we had no therapy today as Eileen is out of town.
Despite this, we’re stable. I think all the sleep yesterday did us some good!
The kids are missing her, but I’ve promised them that they can do something fun this evening, like, for example watch a movie, so that is helping some.
It feels weird not to have had therapy today. Seems odd. Our Monday is just not the same.
I am thinking of Eileen a lot today too. Wondering what she’s learning that she will teach us or show us when she returns. Its all very exciting.
I think I am going to finish off my book tonight too and begin a new one. I have 45 minutes of the true crime book I am reading left to finish it. I will do that soon so I can leave a review for the author, and also review it on my book review blog.
I hope your all having a fab Monday, it feels good to be feeling stable, for a change! Just saying.
this is a question going around in my head today. i keep wondering. will i ever be stable? will i get better as time passes, or will i just get worse? its a tough question to answer, I guess no one can really tell me what will happen as regards my mental illnesses. but i worry. did and complex ptsd are severe mental illness, i worry in time to come what might become of us? right now we are doing everything we can to make a life for ourselves. i know that. i dunno guess im just being introspective today. thinking too much. not like i dont do that often.
YEP ITS TRIGGER CENTRAL AROUND HERE. I COOKED BECAUSE CAROL ANNE DIDNT WANT TO DO IT. SHE IS FEELING LIKE CRAP. NOT TO SAY THAT I’M NOT, BUT I CAN HANDLE THINGS MUCH MORE EFFECTIVELY. I JUST TEXTED EILEEN, ASKING HER IF SHE REALISES TOMORROW IS HALLOWEEN AND TELLING HER I THOUGHT WE’D PROBABLY BE CRAZY DURING OUR SESSION. SHE HASNT RESPONDED YET BUT SHE PROBABLY WILL AT SOME POINT. WE ARE JUST TRYING TO STAY SAFE. STAY OUT OF HARMS WAY AND BE STABLE.